NCT Taeyong Imagines

Experiencing A Miscarriage

You were sitting there on your couch while crocheting a scarf for your baby. It was really beautiful, your mom taught how to crochet. So you planned to give this to your baby. While you were there, Taeyong was fixing the crib.

" Daddy's fixing your crib," you said, holding your tummy. It wasn't that big, but it's getting there. Your 4 months pregnant. And honestly, Taeyong had never been more happier. Because he wanted a kid, a mini Y/n or a mini version of him.

You glanced at the center table, looking for a glass of water. But it was empty, so you decided to get some. You carefully stood up, still touching your tummy. When suddenly you slipped. Hitting your tummy on a step entrance on the kitchen.

You screamed in pain. You tried your best to sit, comfortably. And the pain was too much.

You cried, calling for Taeyong. You can hear him rushing down.

"Y/n," Taeyong looked for you. And he saw you there, he helped you to sit.

"I slipped.. And... My stoma-" when you felt your pants wet. You thought maybe itvwas the wet floor. But.. It was a different..

Taeyong looked at it. He was pale, and ran towards his phone calling an ambulance. You were confused.

"Y/n, look at me," he said he was panicking, he was looking at your lower part. So you did look, and you saw your pants was full of blood.

You began to cry. "Tae..Tae,what's happening.." you cried, but Taeyong held you on to his arms. As you touched your pants, confirming it was blood.

"My baby.." you cried.

"Y/n.. Just Taeyong tried to calm you but you know he was also crying.

" Tae, our baby.. We-we sho- Please.. Not our baby, "you cried grasping his shirt, as you cried.

All you can feel is fear, and pain. You were too afraid to go in the hospital because you know it will give you a good and bad news. But it pains you, seeing that your child is no longer safe.

" Y/n.. Shh. I'm here," Taeyong kissed your head trying to calm you.

FAST FORWARD

You and Taeyong arrived at the hispital, he never let go of your hand. But as you reached the hospital everything went black. You can't even feel anything. But.

Taeyong's POV

The doctor already gave me the news that Y/n had a miscarriage. It nearly killed my her. The doctor said that they all did the best they can, but our baby was no longer... Had a heartbeat.

"I'm sorry," the doctor said, before leaving me outside Y/n's room.

I broke down to tears, seeing her like that. And may baby... Our little angel.

" Taeyong," I heard someone called and it was my mom.

"We've heard," she was also sobbing.

I stayed quiet holding my tears. I told myself that I'll be there for her. For better and for worse.. But how can I say this to her. I know it will broke her.

" I don't know how to say this to Y/n," I said, hiding the tears.

My mom went in front of me, he reached for me. Wiping the tears away. She gave me a weak smile. And that made me burts into tears.

"I can't say it to her.. I can't, she lost a child. We lost a baby." I cried.

" I know it's hard. Especially to her, and all she need is you. So be with her.." she rubbed my back. As I cry my out.

" I wish I can take it all away.. I wanted to take the pain away. " I added.

" I know, my son, "her voice broke.

After that.. I sat beside her bed. Staring at her. She looked so tired. Honestly, I wanted to blame myself. Because I wasn't there wnet it happened. I could've prevented this from happening.

I quickly, held her hands and kissed it.

" Oh god, Y/n.." I whispered, as the tears kept flowing.

I watched her, rested and as she regained her consciousness. She was looking at me, wanting to know what happened to her and our baby.

" is our baby okay?" she asked weakly.

I went quiet, trying to smile. But I know she already know what it meant. And that's when she quietly cried.

"I should've been more careful," she cried.

I immediately went to her side and embrace her. She rested his head on my shoulder, as I hugged her.

"No, baby.. You've done nothing wrong. Dont blame yourself." I said, trying not to broke into tears.

Y/n continues to cry. I know it was more painful for her. Because she's the mother. And I can't even bare the thought, that she was hurting.

" Tae...My baby.. "she whispered.

I bit my lower lip. Trying to hold it in. I needed to be brave for my wife, for my family. I should be the one protecting them. I could've protected them.

" Our baby.. " she cried. And thats when my tears begun to fall.

" I can't feel it anymore," she touched her stomach, like she was looking for our baby.

"Y/n, I'm here," I hugged her even more.

" I didn't had the chance to hold my baby. .." she said, still holding her stomach.

" Y/n.. I'm here. I won't let this happen again," I whispered to her head.

As she cries. I know she wanted to scream, but she didn't... It was too much. And all I can do is to embrace and be there for her.

I could've prevented this from happening..

" My baby.. " Y/n cried.

I wanted to give her my all. But... this was different. It was her child, ou child. My child.

I kept remembering the plans we had for our baby. But...

It was all gone.