our secret [ minchan ]

ch. 6

before we start 🦋
this chapter contains underage drinking, and implied underage non-consensual sex. please read at your own risk.

sorry for any errors. i wrote this chapter half asleep ㅠㅠ

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minho's point of view

there he was again.

"hey dude what're you up to?" the boy said. he was the love of my life. he's a senior, sure. the student council president, too. people adore him. they put this perfect image on him that not even the higher-ups could do anything about it.

yugyeom. he's perfect, everyone likes him; including me. although the feeling i have is not just a feeling of admiration.

i was in love.

for the first time in my life, i was in love. and it was with a.. boy. someone with the same gender as me. but i had girlfriends before — with feelings of course, but it's not.. love.

so what am i exactly?

"nothing much," i chuckled. hey, this guy is adorable. i mean, look at him being all smiley. the smile so contagious that i couldn't stop myself from smiling as well.

"you free this saturday?"

is this... an invitation?

"uh what's the occasion?" i asked, still holding the smile that i've been having on my face since the first second he came.

"nothing special. just that there's a party at one of my friends' house. thought that you'd like to join?" yugyeom said. i looked behind us, only to see a few — maybe three — of his friends, smiling and waving to me when we made eye contact. i only smiled back before turning to face him again.

"oh a party?" i said. honestly, since the exam is in two weeks, i wouldn't really like it if i had to skip my study hour only to, well, party. but since the one inviting me is him, i'll go.

"okay," i continued before smiling wider, realising that he nodded, like a signal, to his friends, which made them cheered silently.

as if he just succeeded in proposing me to prom, which i would say yes to immediately if it were to ever happen.

hey, let's not get our hopes up here, lee minho.

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"i'll pick you up around 7. wear something casual. it's just a party ^^"

i read his text again and look into the body mirror in my room. would this be okay?

just a grey hoodie, paired with my favourite sweatpants. for shoes, i just wore a high-cut converse with some cat themed socks i found in my drawer. "looking good," i told myself.

that's when i received another text.

"i'm outside ;)"

damn, i've never been this nervous with anyone before. not even my previous girlfriends.

"okay" i replied before taking my items and getting out of my room, turning off the light in the process.

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"he looks cute," one of his friends said. i'm pretty sure his name is bambam. he's an international student. pretty popular; just like him, expectedly.

"told you," yugyeom said, winking to me. i could feel my heart picking up a beat.

"you want a drink?" he offered. is it alcohol?

i gave him a questioning look, pretty sure i look uncomfortable right now. im not even legal to drink yet.

"it's just light beer. won't actually get us too drunk," yugyeom said. i just smiled nervously when he came closer to my ear. i can definitely feel his both breath on my neck. it sent shivers down my spine for sure.

"don't worry. if you actually get drunk, i'll bring you home safely."

i took the drink from his hand, drinking it down in one go. it tasted a bit bitter.. not exactly to my liking. but i remembered hearing them cheering for me.

that's the last thing i remembered before i passed out and waking up naked. next to someone i didn't know. what i do know is that, the person next to me is definitely not yugyeom.

and my ass hurts like shit.

i took my phone from the nightstand and proceed to text yugyeom to ask where he is.

fuck.

i'm blocked?

after that, i went home, crying. locked in my room for days. my parents didn't even know about it until the day i move away from there when i met him again and he came to me to...

apologise.

he really thought an apology could settle everything, huh? this man bitch.

maybe he wasn't all that perfect after all.

with all anger that i've been keeping inside, i looked over to my parents before spitting on his face.

"that's what you get for treating me like i'm no one after acting like i'm someone. i thought we had something. but i was wrong."

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"what happened after that?" jeongin asked, listening intently to my story.

"he was stunned. i walked over to my parents, and told them everything about what happened. i came out as well. but it's never certain," i continued.

"what do you mean it's never certain?" this time, it's chan asking me.

"i've never told them what i am. i mean, i haven't figured it out whether i'm just gay or it's any other way," i sighed.

"in conclusion, my first love was a piece of shit and i am now scared of falling in love again," i said, chuckling. it is actually funny how i am scared of falling in love.

i noticed how bangchan listened to my story very well. and i don't even know why do i feel comfortable telling him all of.. this.

"hey, whatever you are, i'll be here for you, okay?" jeongin said, giving me this assuring look.

that helps.

"not only him, though. we will be here for you, if you're comfortable with me being your friend, of course," chan said, taking one of my hands in the process, rubbing his thumb over it. it's as if he's trying to comfort me.

i looked into his eyes, trying to find the sincerity behind those words. but all i could find was a pair of violet eyes, staring right back at me.

wait... violet?

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