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Chap_8_Loneliness

*after 9 months*

HELLEN'S POV

*its been about almost more than 9 months it meant that I was at the end of my 2nd year of college, and I wasn't enjoying it at all, it's also has been 9 months since the fight between my friends, I don't even have the rights to call them my friends anymore, they took themselves away from me.

I had spent these 9 months with prefect duty and hoping for the betterment but nothing changed instead they became more and more distant.

I even moved from OUR home to a tiny apartment which I could afford from my part time job in a mall.

The only good thing that happened to me during this time period was that job.

As time went by I couldn't handle the loneliness, this was the reason why I left behind my family to start my studies here but everything went to vain.

I couldn't understand why they didn't see that it was SILAS who had done the damage and I was just trying to fix it, the blame game I was facing in college didn't help at all.

Let me update you on the past 9 months of mine.

At the FIRST month

I stayed in a motel until I was able to find an affordable apartment, it took me a month to settle down.

The SECOND month

Was spent mostly on me trying to fix my friendship with them, but all they did was throw hurtful words at me and call me names, at this point I stopped trying.

The THIRD month

I started to find a job for myself and I did after a long time of searching they accept me as an employee, and I couldn't be happier, I even had turned 18, celebrated my birthday with my family in a video call I even skipped my class that day and stayed home.

The FOURTH month

Stacey the only one who stayed in contact with me decided to leave my side, she said me how jasmine and Nicole weren't OK with her talking to me, I didn't get what was their problem but I didn't start a fight, I gave up.

The FIFTH month

My grades started to fall, and principal decided to confront me and threatened me that if my grades weren't back to A+ my title as the lead prefect could be taken away from me, I didn't want that to happen, so I worked my *** off to get it back on track and I did just that.

The SIXTH month

Well this month was really interesting the guy who was there by my side for the past five months seemed busy with something else, yes I am talking about Xavier, and by something else I meant the girl who was the reason behind my hurtings in the past " Hailey" was her name, she was the one whom he was dating behind my back while he was leading me into thinking that we had future, they were back together or that's what I heard and I couldn't handle it, I was right the REJECTION was back and I should HAVE stayed away like I had planned but I didn't, all those apologies and his promises to me about not giving up on me of his seemed meaningless to me at the very moment, it was just another lie to break me once again and just like he wanted me to, I spent most of my time crying like a kid over a broken doll.

The SEVENTH month

I tried to bring myself back to sense, I can't be seen broken over an ***hole at all, I felt stupid for it.