sayonika oneshots ♡

❝you matter<3❞

TW : self doubt, mentions of su!c!de

MONIKA'S POV :

i was sitting in the clubroom all alone. i've been waiting for natsuki and sayori to arrive for like 10 minutes or more. after few moments, sayori stormed in and i looked at her.

"AHH MONIKA !! I'M SO, SO SORRY FOR BEING LATE AGAIN, I-I--"

"it's alright sayori, where's natsuki ?"

she then started to think. she looked like i've just asked her the most difficult question in the world.

"nat...natsuki..hmmmm.. OH NATSUKI ! she said she was sick, so she didn't come to school today !!"

i chuckled at her 'sudden realization'. she's so cute when she's confused- wait whaa-?!

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i'm sitting at the table and writing something. i don't know why, but i'm feeling really lonely, even tho sayori is here. maybe it's because she's been quiet since we sat down. it's pretty boring when she's silent like this. i looked at her. she had her face burried in her hands.

at the beginning, the silence helped me concentrate on writing, but as the time passed it started getting awkward at first, and then in was really, REALLY uncomfortable. i better say something soon-

"so sayori, how are you today ?" i finally decided to ask. but i didn't get any response.

"sayori ? are you alright ??" no response again. okay, i'm getting worried about her now.

i got up from my seat and came to her. i called her name again, making her to look at me. oh god. her ocean blue eyes were full of tears that were falling down her cheeks.

"s-sayori ? what's wro--" before i could finish she came to me and hugged me tight. she burried her face in my chest, letting out sobs.

"i-i can't do this monika.."

"calm down sayori.. everything's going to be alright..."

"w-why are you comforting me..? i don't deserve this !! i can't do anything right. i sleep in everyday and get late to school and even after that i'm always late to club meetings.. ! i'm s-so sorry for everything, i bet that you would be happier if i was never born... a-and if i killed myself, nobody would cry."

w-what the fuck is sayori saying about herself ?! none of this shit is true.

"sayori.. there's no way in saying this politely but, shut the fuck up. stop talking bad things about yourself because we know you're better than that. i would never let you even try doing something bad to yourself. we all need you, i need you. "

"m-monika why are you even saying this stuff..??" she asked me in the eyes.

i looked at her. she was looking at me with a very confused look on her face. i took a deep breath and continued talking.

"sayori... it's because i..-"

"you what ??"

"i love you sayori.."

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first chapter, worst chapter lol
it's really short but ehh-
hope you liked it :))