BTS were ignoring Namjoon , or it's what he thinks.
He felt like he is drifting apart from them slowly. Being the less popular member was also no help. At everything gathering or meeting it seems like he doesn't exist there, whenever he made a remark or comments they simply nod and then someone break the silence and they continue babbling about their things.
They were a perfect group except him.
He wasn't the first choice to talk with. They always have someone in the first place to talk with or share things. Whenever he went near them they start whisperings look like talking bad about him and feared to get caught.
No this can't happen, they were nice people but still his anxiety got the best of him. He knew they talk behind his back how he tie them into strong discipline, always strict with them, not doing a good job a leader but when he ask they simply declined. He knew Yoongi can be the best leader. He even sometime thinks that they secretly knew all things but pretend not to just to humiliate him.
It hurts fucking much, he craved the love they have, the movie nights they spent, the bond they possess, he get hurt so much when they simply nod and ignored his words and his presence.
Arms around knees, head down he was crying inside his room as the members went for mall and ofcourse forget event to feel or realise his existence, sniff's and sobs echoing in the room mocking him over his pathetic self, he wipe his tears, it's been 2 hours and his puffy eyes started to sting and he was tired. Namjoon fell asleep on his bed with only one though in mind, Not a family anymore,it's never were in the first place.
He wakeup at 6pm of evening glancing at his phone get a message from Jackson of OT7 , complaining that he not care about his buddy and he upset with him. He get up signing and rubbing his eye feeling the sting again, he quickly text him back ..
Yo, Jackson don't be a kid
grown up man
So you got time
to remind you long forg
goten friend, huh
It's not like that, I was
busy with songs and stuff
Tell me something I
don't know, when aren't
you busy, you have time
for everything but not for
me........
******Restaurant
7:30 Sharp
Huh?
I still didn't have my
dinner and I'm quite
hungry so~
Wait is sun today
from South.....
So not coming?
Yeah!!!!! I'm coming,
don't you dare to cancel
now.....
'MK I'll wait...
Byy!!!! Love you😍
😊Byy.....
He get up from the bed heading towards bathroom to change, atleast he still have people who cared about him not like others used him for their use and then simply throw like a trash. Now he don't care anymore.
He was sliding his shoes when the mankane saw him.
'Where are you going Hyung'- Jungkook asked as he saw the leader in hurry. "Outside "he simply answer in a monotonous voice not bothering to look behind. 'Yea but where? and it's dinner time' " With a friend on dinner" " But you going to eat your food I already cooked"- said Jin behind Jungkook other members behind him. "I didn't ask you to make" he sad getting up and heading to the door. "But Jin Hyung already made joonie and he always did for all of us even when we didn't ask for"- said Jimin beside Taehyung looking at the leader face as he turned to face them holding the door knob." It's Hyung to you and as I said I didn't ask for so throw away or store it, further no need to bother yourself" " it's not a bother Joon we---" "it's Namjoon, Namjoon Kim" he cut Jin off mid sentence and head outside leaving the members behind with a sadness on face and pain in heart.
He was not the Namjoon they used to know anymore......
