Stars, stripes and student life [Larry Stylinson]

Chapter 20

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"I fucking hate you!" Harry storms into his father's office, ignoring all the important people of his political party. "How could you do this to me!" Tears are rolling down Harry's cheek and he couldn't give a shit about the weird looks he receives from the people around the table.

"Harry darling..." Taylor coos. She puts down her IPad and walks towards the boy. "Let's just go outside, yeah? Your dad will talk la-"

"I don't need to talk to him." Harry snaps.

"Harry..." Desmond has a warning tone but Harry really doesn't care. "Listen to Taylor."

"From all the people, from all the people on this planet you chose him! The one person that cared about me!" Harry cries aggressively. "You made me lose my favourite person and you fucking knew it! You knew I couldn't handle being around him anymore once I find out!"

"Gentlemen, I'm very sorry. We're taking a one hour break. I'll make sure snacks will be served." Desmond leaves the table, grabs Harry's arm and pulls him outside of his office.

"How dare you storming in like that, Harry?" his father hisses. "You have no idea how much damage this could do."

"You have done all the damage that could be done to me, father." The word sounds like a curse coming from Harry's lips. "You made me lose Louis. You knew it! You knew I was falling for him! This is some kind of sick plan to rip us apart and it fucking worked!" Harry can't control the tears that are flowing. "Why did you choose him, dad?"

"If he can save you from a fire, he can save you from everything. And I was right, Harry. He made sure you survived the shooting. You are my son and I'm sorry that I care more about you being alive than you being in love."

"You took all the life out of me."

"You are being dramatic, Harry Edward Styles."

"You know I wanted to feel normal! Louis was the only one making me feel like I could be myself and that's okay! He reminded me that I was just a human, flesh and blood, a beating heart, nothing more than other people. Why, dad, why from all people you choose him?"

"Because I knew you wanted to be a normal kid, Harry and I also knew if I just sent security up to LA that you would rebel against it because you are still not mature enough to understand that this is your life we are talking about!" Des shouts. "So the only option I saw choosing someone that was close to you anyway, you wouldn't notice. You didn't shut up about Louis on the phone, then he saved you from the fire and it was a no brainer, Harry."

"Louis could have been hurt so fucking badly while protecting me!" Harry shouts back. "He could have been hurt because of me and that's not something I can deal with!"

"Being paid or not he would have gotten hurt being near you, Harry. That boy protects you anyway, being his job or not."

"Then why did you have to hire him?" Harry's a bit calmer now, tears rolling soundless from his cheeks. "If he would have saved me anyway, why hiring him? Spending money? Taking away the one person I love."

"I needed to be 100% sure." Desmond sighs. "He is a college kid, he could have changed his mind any day. When I read his file about his family being close to being deported... I knew that's how I could make him stay, Harry. And maybe that's not the way I should have handled it, maybe I should have discussed it with you, but both Louis and I did it for you Harry, because we care about you."

"I can't trust him anymore." Harry shakes his head. "I can't trust someone that is fucking hired by my dad. What am I even saying? I can't even trust my dad... I'm sorry, I- I need some time alone."

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It's another three days later that Harry decides to talk to Louis. It's obvious that the boy will be around him anyway because he is literally his bodyguard and he is done feeling awkward about it. He wishes he could just forgive Louis, forget it all and kiss him. God he misses kissing Louis, falling asleep in his arms. He has to forget about it though. Even when his intentions were good, he hurt Harry in a way he has never been hurt before and all the trust he had blindly for the boy before, it's as good as all gone.

"Louis?" Harry opens the door of his room and calls the boy standing in front of it. "Can we talk please?"

"God, yes." Louis nods. "Yes, please." He jogs inside and takes place on Harry's bed when the younger boy gives him the sign to sit there.

"I want to be clear with you." Harry starts. "And truthful, because one of us has to be that, right?" Harry doesn't miss Louis flinching at his comment.

"I have been thinking about us and for me it's just impossible to fix again. You lied to me, didn't even flinch and even though people keep telling me you did it to be good to me, it doesn't feel like that."

"Haz.."

"Let me talk, Louis." Harry sobs. "You lied to me and honestly I don't know what is actually the truth anymore. What words you said to me were true? Which ones were a lie? What did you do out of your so called love and what did you do because you had to? What am I to you? Louis if we would still be... you know together... I don't think I could ever feel like your boyfriend anymore, just like that helpless guy you have to keep save."

"That's not true, Harry and don't say such a things!" Louis protests. "You know what this is? This is you protecting yourself from actually being with someone that cares about you because you are scared. You are scared of someone that actually sees how normal you are."

"That's bullshit, Louis."

"Oh is it?" Louis laughs humourless. "I don't think so. You know deep down that I love you. You know that I meant every word I said but you don't want to accept it. You don't want to believe that to some people you are just a normal kid. You like hiding behind the fucking title of president's son. And you, Harry Styles, you are scared because being with me is the closest to a normal life you will ever be. Because I treat you like a person, not like a celeb or a porcelain doll. I bring you in danger as much as I safe you. I pull you out of your comfort zone and that, Harry, that scares the fuck out of you.

I never treated you differently because you are the president's son, I only treated you differently because I love you. And that's something you don't want to see. You like to be the sad boy in a golden cage. Go ahead, lock yourself up again." Louis sobs. "But know that I will always be there to break you out again. I'm just not sure if that's what you want, Harry... I don't know if you really want to be as free as you always say. The first excuse you find to let go of me, you just take it."

"Shut up, Louis."

"I'm not shutting up!" Louis shakes his head. "All I've ever done since I met you is trying to make you happy. I should have told you about the deal, or even denied your father, but I didn't. I made a mistake, I'm only human. It just scares me how easily you forgive me for selling drugs in the past and you dump me like a piece of shit only for protecting you, loving you, keeping you safe and happy.

You, Harry Styles, act like you want to be normal but once you are in that life, you do anything to go back to mister president's son. With or without your father's money, Harry, I'd take a bullet for you. And now you are the one that is lying because I don't believe you that you break up with me just because I took the deal. You are breaking up with me because I pull you out of your comfort zone and it scares the fuck out of you."

"Get out of my room."

"And that's okay, Harry. You can be scared. But allow me to be there for you, to help you, to love you." Louis keeps talking, ignoring Harry.

"I said get out." He spits again.

Louis stands up and quickly pulls a stray of hair behind Harry's ear.

"I know that you are scared. I predicted that you would push me away. Just know that, as hard as you try to push, you are not going to be able to make me stop loving you, H. If you need me, I'll be here, always here, only for you. Not because your dad pays me, but because I love you. And I know that you know that, Harry." Louis whispers.

"Out of my room, Louis and fuck off."