Out of My Control

Chapter 1

𝐴𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦'𝑠 𝑃𝑂𝑉

Trapped. That's what I felt like. I was suffocating, I couldn't breathe. I tried screaming for help, but no one came to help me.

Am I not worth saving?

I shook the words out of my head and I kept screaming, but still, no one came. I frantically splashed around in the deep end of the pool, trying to fight for my life, but it was no use.

This is it. My life has come to an end. At least I will finally be at peace.

But before everything could go black, an electric shock struck my body. My eyes shoot open. Suddenly it is hard to breathe again, my heart is beating so fast, I swear you could see it beating out of my chest. I wipe the sweat off my forehead and my hands move to my chest, feeling my heart.

Breathe Avery, breathe, it was just a nightmare.

I feel tears streaming down my face but I quickly wipe them away. I refuse to let anyone in my home see me cry. I refuse to let my parents affect me. I will never understand why my parents do what they do. Aren't parents meant to treat their kids with love? I thought they were meant to care for them. How come I never got that. All I wanted was affection but what I got was abuse. Physical and verbal abuse. But maybe that was their way of showing love? Everyone is different, so maybe that's their different way of showing love. They're still my parents at the end of the day and they provide me with food and a roof over my head. I'm grateful for them and I love them. Well at least I think I do?

I quickly get out of bed and head to the bathroom. The bathroom is quite small but I'm grateful for it as I know that a lot of people out there in the world don't even have a bathroom. I hop into the shower and its hair wash day! I grab my coconut shampoo and wash my scalp. I rinse it and proceed to add my coconut conditioner to the ends of my hair. While I'm letting the conditioner sit in my hair, I wash my body with my vanilla body wash, I exfoliate and I shave my legs. Once that is all done, I rinse the conditioner and I step out of the shower. Looking at my phone, I panic as I notice the time.

Great job Avery, you took too long in the shower.

I quickly speed it up and I get changed into my work clothes. I quietly open the door so I don't risk waking up my parents. I walk into the living room and see them passed out on the couch. I sigh deeply as I see beer cans scattered all over the floor, there is white powder all over the coffee table. I know I was going to have to clean this up but I was late for work.

Maybe I can call in sick? Wait, no, you can't do that Avery, you have bills to pay.

As much as I didn't want to leave the mess, I had to. I have bills to pay and I would rather get punished than lose the house. I grab my shoes and quietly make my way to the door. I open and lock the door. After locking the door, I begin to sprint. There was no way I was going to be late to work, we didn't have a car either and being late was no help whatsoever. I'm usually always on time.

I blame that nightmare that happened this morning.

DING-DING!

I cringe at the bell at the door, but I quickly run behind the counter and I grab an apron. I then apologised to Susan (the owner of this fine diner) for being late, being the kind woman she is, she smiled and told me it was ok. "Susan, what station am I on today?" I ask, "You're a waitress today sweetie!" Susan replied. I smile. I'm happy that I'm a waitress today, I love meeting new people!

DING-DING!

There goes that stupid bell again. I grab my notepad and pen from my pocket and head over to the booth. "Hello! Welcome to Susan's Fine Diner! My name is Avery and I'll be your waitress today! What can I get started for you!" I ask with clear excitement in my voice. I look up from my notepad and I meet the most gorgeous eyes I have ever seen in my whole life.

Woah.

~ 06/02/2022

First chapter is done :)

I hope you enjoyed and continue to follow along with me on this journey.

You are loved and take care of yourselves <3

Much love, em xx