I plop down on my bed and scream into my pillow. Worst. Week. Ever. Apparently people heads are too far up their own asses to see whats going on with the rest of the world and not just with them. Take Rachel: she seems to think her life is so perfect, and that she is so perfect. But she isn’t. she has just the same amount of flaws as the rest of us. The problem is she doesn’t want to admit it. She used to be one of my best friends. But I have no idea what happened to that.
She got a boyfriend who keeps her away from everyone, even her family. And we didn’t hang out for months at a time because of him and we got into several arguments because of it.
But the worst part is, that even when the fight is her fault, I’m always the one who has to apologize first. Like she is too good to apologize for her faults. We got into a huge argument over the summer that pretty much ruined our “friendship”, and I say that with quotes because I’m starting to wonder if it was a true friendship.
And now I figure out that she has been telling people that they shouldn’t hang with me because I am “immature” and i “get angry to easily”. I get angry when people piss me off. I always try to explain to her why I do get angry a lot. I was bullied a lot growing up for being chubby, and i still am. It’s hard to get over stuff like that. But i guess she doesnt get it.
In her words “a good Christian would forgive and forget”, when in my mind, a good Christian would love someone no matter their flaws or how they look or dress, thats what a good person does. They dont go around and talk about people behind their backs. But i guess thats her deal, not mine.
I sat up on my bed and grabbed my computer. I saw my screen saver and just looked at it for a long time. It was Andy Biersack from Black Veil Brides. The picture was him singing into the microphone. He was such a beautiful man, and so inspirational. But a lot of girls go crazy over him. A lot of them significantly prettier than me. He could choose any girl he wanted and i know he would never choose me.
I closed my laptop. I had to stop thinking about him. He would never choose me so I had to stop. I grabbed my backpack and my Ipod and played the songs on shuffle. I got out my Algebra II homework and attempted to figure out what the hell an absolute value function was.
I let the music flow through my head. Listening to music while I worked helped me concentrate, until the song Saviour by Black Veil Brides came on. It was my favorite song by them. I totally lost my focus when the song came on so i yanked my earbuds out and threw them aside.
I had to stop thinking about Andy. It was never going to happen between me and him. I doubt I would ever even meet him. I’m never allowed to go to a concert, and thats where a lot of people met the band, and they haven’t had a signing at a Hot topic near hear where i could go and say hi to them.
It’s so difficult. I realized then, that i couldnt forget about him. He was on my mind all the time. And i have both of the albums on my Ipod so their music would come up eventually. So i guess its back to me writing silly love stories about us meeting and falling deeply in love.....like thats ever going to happen.
I set aside my homework and just laid on my bed, thinking. I closed my eyes and i saw his face, his long black hair, his beautiful deep blue eyes. I would have fallen asleep if my phone hadn’t gone off.
I looked at my phone. It was a text from my friend Lauren. She told me to call her. So i did. “Hello?” Lauren answered. “Hey you told me to call you?” i said. “Oh, Virginia! I have BIG news!!” she exclaimed. She sounded very excited about something. “What is it?” i said. “My mom, just bought tickets and VIP passes to see........BLACK VEIL BRIDES!!” she screamed in excitement on those last words.
My eyes lit up. “Really!?!? Thats awesome!! What do the VIP passes do?” i asked with excitement and tears of joy welling up in my eyes. “They allow us, for sure, to meet the band before the show!” Lauren said. When she said that i nearly dropped the phone. “And that means you will get to meet your future man, Virginia!” she continued to say. I was quiet, but there was a huge smile on my face. I was going to be able to meet Andy! I felt like i was in a dream! “When is the concert?” I asked. “Next Saturday. Its going to be EPIC!!!” she screamed excitedly. “It will be amazing!” i said.
“Well i just wanted to tell you that. I have to go clean the house.” Lauren said. “Wow Lauren your actually cleaning? Thats a first.” i said sarcastically. “Well if i really wanted those tickets for the two of us i had to do something to convince my mom to buy them. So im cleaning the house until it shines.” she explained. I giggled and told her goodbye.
When i hung up the phone i laid down on my bed with the biggest smile on my face. My mom was still at work so i texted her the news about the concert. She texted back and said she was happy for me to go, and that i just had to keep up with my homework to be able to go.
I set my phone down and began to think about what would happen when i met Andy. I know how sweet of a guy he is so he will definitely be nice to us. I wonder how many other people will have VIP tickets? I would think about the questions i wanted to ask him, and all the things i wanted to tell him. I thought about telling him how much i wanted to sing with him one day, but he might think thats silly. But who knows.
