just our moment

chapter one: miss him:)

You can always tell when it's slipping away.

Harper's P.O.V

All the kids were laughing.

They jumped on the couch, hit each other and ran.

I can't remember much of my childhood but I don't imagine it this happy, I vaguely remember being chill and rational, or so my grandmother told me.

Either way, life was never painful, I loved and live everyday to the fullest having little to no worries.

The cycle of life.

Evening came and each parent collected their child, I was exhausted when they were all gone.

Don't get me wrong, I love this job,
Especially the kids but having to clean up after them is something I wish I didn't have to do.
This would be perfect if I just watched these kids play around and be happy but no they make mess.

Atleast Ayla comes over to help occasionally and luckily she did today.

It didn't take long for everything to be clean and sparkly, after we were done I locked the door and we walked to my house.

"Liam didn't text me all day yesterday and oh my lord, I was so worried like so much things could have happened, he could have spent the day with some girl, or been in an accident or just simply lost interest, I don't know man it's getting so hard with the distance, I trust him I really do but I'm scared I might lose him you know..." Ayla ranted about her long distance boyfriend, that's who she talks about mostly when we hang out, like it's good to see my best friend in a healthy relationship but with distance anything can happen and you won't know easily.

"You overthink too much, let me guess he lost his charger again?" I sighed and shook my head with a knowing smile.

"Yeah, that's what he said" she confirmed but I heard the doubt was evident in her voice, I didn't question it though.

I was about to unlock my front door with the key but it was already opened so Conner, my boyfriend of seven years must be home.

I bid Ayla goodnight and went in but the lights were off, I could make out his muscular figure on the cough when I
Went in the living room.

"Hey" I greeted him,debating whether I should peak his lips or not, I didn't though I felt like he wasn't in a good mood and since he didn't acknowledge my presence either showed that he was really in fact not in a good mood.

"Okay, I'll go make dinner" I smiled trying to say something that will cheer him up, he didn't even glance at me.

"Babe, what are you mad about?" I spoke slowly almost like I'm reading from a script with big words that I can't pronounce properly or just like how I talk to the kids trying to get them to understand something.

"Take my shirt off, it's okay if you wear my clothes but my new ones or off-limit, harper" he straight up scolded me.
"It's a really weird thing and I accepted it long ago but it's really annoying me now".

"fine I won't ever wear your clothes again!" I walked off, I was offended so as I head to our bedroom I took it off and threw it in the bin.

"Now you really pissing me off!" He yelled following me.
"Why the fuck did you do that?", that was unnecessary!"

It was unnesscary in this situation but I was angry about other things too, the way he's acting now was never him, I didn't fall for a guy that was easily irritated.
I miss the guy I fell for in high-school.
He was understanding and humble.

I miss the conner that smiled at me when I took his food and I'm slowly despising the guy that threw his plate to the ground when I took a bite of his sandwich eventhough he apologize after saying he was in a bad mood.

I don't understand how someone can change so much.
These things seem little but they hurt way more than little problems should.

Lately we fight way too often over silly things and it's breaking my heart.
I didn't want to fight anymore, I just wanted a hug from the conner I love, the one that came by my house when I missed school for three days, I still remember him looking so worried by the door steps and the wide grin he gave me when he saw that I was okay.
The long kisses we did under the sunset are stained in my memory.

"Whatever" I muttered and walked in the bedroom then to the joined bathroom to fresh my self up for bed.

"You really changed, this isn't the harper I know!" He yelled, I froze in between taking up my face wash.

"Excuse me..."I was stunned, in seconds I was back in the bed room, staring at him in disbelief.
"I'm the one that changed?!, I'm pretty sure you didn't have angry issues back then" I pointed out.

"I don't have angry issues, you do things to piss me off, and I'm sure you cared about your appearance back then!" He shot back.

"What do you mean?" my voice came out volunerable.

"Look in the mirror, you've let yourself go, putting on weight, eating and sleeping all the time" he used his hand gesture to my body.

He was right.

I did put on weight, I'm tired all the time and stress eat alot too.

I didn't have anything to say to that but my mouth said something anyways.

"Then go find someone that haven't let themselves go" my voiced cracked and I went back to the bathroom.

"Keep on being like this and I will" he said it loud so I could hear but I didn't want to answer him, I was afraid if I open my mouth again I will cry.

I sat by the toilet, I didn't want to leave the bathroom and face him.

I let the build up tears go, I just want to be happy.
I'm so sick and tired of this.

I pulled my knees to my chest ready to cry my eyes out but my head shot up when I heard something break.