EX-BOYFRIEND | BTS JUNGKOOK FF✔

Why's

"Seoyun... I wanted to tell you this since then.... But I didn't have the chance because we already broke up and have never seen you again." You started to get confuse. "I'm sorry for what I have done to you." When you heard him saying the word 'SORRY' your eyes started to get blurry because of the water in your eye filling it. "I'm sorry if I hurt you that
much." He continued. "I know I was a jerk before but since then you broke up with me, no time that I will think about you. Before going to sleep, and after waking
up..... All I can think about is you." A tear fell into your cheeks as you were confuse of why is he not telling the reason why he cheated on you.

"Why did you cheated on me?" You blurted out the words as your tears began to fall one by one. "Seoyun-" he tried to speak but you cutted him off. "Why did you have to hurt me?" You continue asking 'why's'. He just look at you like a statue. "Why did you have to find anyone else?" His eyes also became teary as you continues asking him. "Wasn't I enough for you?" You asked again. "No." He answered. "Then why did you have to find someone else!?" You can't take it anymore so you just shouted at him while asking as more tears fell down your cheeks.

He was hesitating to answer at first but then you spoke again. "You can't even answer my questions." He looked at you with a worried expression. "Seoyun.... It's not what you were thinking." He finally spoke. "Then what?! Tell me!!" You couldn't hold back your tears anymore. He again didn't answer.

"Did..... Did you even lo-loved me?" You started to stutter as you were feeling weaker and weaker. He looked at you in disbelief. "Of course, I did!" He replied back. "Then.... Why?" You asked in a very low tone of your voice.

"I didn't have a choice." He looked down. You laughed sarcastically after you heard him. "Didn't have a choice? Wow~! Didn't have a CHOICE! Big word... Jeon, such a BIG FUCKING WORD." You laughed like a crazy person and stopped when you suddenly remembered about the girl he cheated on with. "Ooh~ about the girl. Where is she now? Did you dump her too?" After you said the sentence, you heard a loud clap and felt a pain in your one cheek that make your head tilt to the side.

You held your cheeks with your one hand and you suddenly felt a hand grip your other hand so tight. "Don't you dare make her up between this conversation." He said in a mad tone. You can clearly see it in his eyes that he was madly angry. You let out a mean chuckle. You are waiting for this day to come and it finally is happening. "She doesn't have anything to do with this!" You smiled like a maniac. His grip never loosen instead get more tight. You were feeling so much pain. Inside you, your heart, your muscles, and your head. Your cheeks and your arm. "Why?! She's more good in bed?! She's more good at kissing?!" You manage to laugh again even if you were trembling in fear. The guy in front of you was just standing mad. His reaction never change.

"Was she?!" You shouted. "Shut up!" He shouted back. "No! You! Shut up!" You build your courage to shout at him when his hand still gripping your arms tight. "You were the one who wanted to bring this up!. You were the one who wanted this to happen!. And you were the fucking one who wanted to hurt me!" His expression soften when he realized that he was really hurting you. He let go of your arms and take a step backward. You caressed your arm that was so red now from his grip. He look at you with all the guilt enter his face.

"Seoyun I'm sorry, I didn't mean to-" he stepped forward wanted to touch you but you backed away, stepping a feet backward. His face was clearly worried. "Get o-out." You manage to speak even if you were so much in pain. "Leave!" You shouted. "Seoyun-" he called your name.

"I said leave! Now!" You repeated yourself. He slowly walk backwards until he reached your door and left.

You made your whole body collapse at the couch as you were still in pain. You started crying again when you remembered it all.

How could he do this to me?

All you can ask yourself was 'how could he do this to me?' And it was surprising because he never hurt you before when you were still together years ago. He never let his hand fell on you hardly. He never did that to you. But earlier, you didn't know who you were talking to. He was holding your arm so tight. He never did that to you before, even if you were in such a big argument with him. He slapped you. He never ever did that to you before, even if you were arguing about something and suddenly blurted out such a bad word. He never did anything like that before.

Did he really change that much after our break up?

He literally changed a lot. I've never imagine in my life that he will do those things to me.

Did he really love me?

Then how did he do that to me? How did he hurt me that much earlier?

He wasn't clear to me at all. He wasn't the guy I loved. He wasn't the guy I fell in love with. He wasn't the right one. He wasn't.

I didn't knew him earlier. I didn't saw the Jeon Jungkook I know.

He might have reasons for what he did to you but you knew all the answers to your questions to him. You just wanted to make sure that what you were thinking, the answers in your mind, was all right. You wanted him to tell you everything. But he didn't even answer any of your important questions. He didn't say anything and just stand there frozen like an ice.

He isn't the Jeon Jungkook I know. It was someone else.