She's My Blue

Blue 5

I packed my things. For my next vacation. I don't know if it's work. But I need to try.

This is my last vacation. So maybe it help to me to move on.

I was busy to packed my staff. When I hear my phone text ringtone.

I grab it to see where that text came from.

But it's unknown number.

My heart beaten so fast. My chest want to explodes. I don't know why. But there's a person behind that number. And one person that comes to my mind.

Chelsea.

I don't know if I open the message.

There's a fear in my mind. That swallow my whole body.

At the end I open it. And like what l said it's from Chelsea. I was shock.

"Hi. It's Chelsea. Can we talk. In your favorite coffee shop."

I don't know if I can face her. If we meet. There's a pain in my heart. That say don't. But my mind say that I need to give her a second chance.

After 1 years that we broke up. Suffering to my wounded heart.

And Now? Those three dots appears in my phone. Just because she want me to meet her in my favorite shop.

I don't understand why. But if she want a second chance. My heart never love him again.

Maybe I can face het now. To say "hey how are you?" But not to give her a second chance.

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I change my clothes. Not to impress her. I want to show her who am I now.

I took my car key and meet him.

I arrived in the shop. I see her sitting through the glass window waiting for me.

My knees start shaking. And my heart start pumping so fast. The girl that I love the most. Is sitting in my favorite shop.

This is the last time to see her face. Because after this. I promise to my self. I need to let her go. To forget all the pain that she cause.

I'm inside the shop. I can see her. While busy to her phone. So I came up slowly. Then seat in front of her.

She face me to look in my eyes. But I throw my mine outside.

"Hi," I said.

But she had no response. She smile at me.

"So how are you?"

"I miss you Nicky." The only words that she say.

I don't know what kind of feelings I have right now. After I hear those words coming from her.

"You said you miss me?" I stunned. "I don't know if I miss you. But now I'm here to see you. To talk to you. So how are you now?"

I make a fake smile.

"I'm good. Im here to say sorry. If I hurt you that night. But I want you to know that...that...I still love you."

She grab my right hands over the table. And squeeze it.

"I wanted to be better when you saw me again. And I thought I could be...somehow. But I'm not. And even if I did get better. The best I could ever be. Is still some other version of me. Talking to you right now. And that's just never good enough." I remove my hands. "That night I feel bad. I don't know if what I've done. But you walk away and never look back. That's the hardest thing you did to me."