Natasha romanoff one shots

Open tbe door

⚠️Tw⚠️: mentions of sh!
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You've always hated Steve, ever since you got to the tower it feels like he's had it out for you. Your childhood was tough, being kidnapped by hydra, tested on, never knowing your parents and so much more but the worst part was that all of that left you with trauma. You can't remember the last time you slept without having a nightmare or walked around somewhere new without breaking down. The only person that had truly been there for you was Natasha.

All she ever was to you was nice, she was understanding and would help whenever you needed it. A few months after you got really close you both ended up admitting you had feelings for each other and had been dating ever since but in secret. Her love was all you needed to keep going in the world.

It was another normal day at the tower, waking up and going straight to see Natasha in the room next door then going to breakfast downstairs but when you got down there you were met with a fuming Steve.

He was pacing up and down by the sofa looking like he was about to blow a fuse.

'Morning Steve, what's up? You look like your about to explode?' Natasha said to him.

'It's her.' He pointed to you, 'She screwed up the last mission and now Fury's having a go at me because of the damage!' He yelled.

You could feel tears pricking your eyes and your legs turn to jelly.

'W..what?! I never did anything wrong on the last mission? All I did was hacking into the data base and download all the files?' You said.

'No! You downloaded the data base onto the internet and now the whole world knows what's going on!'

'Oh my god, Steve I'm so sorry I didn't know-' you splitter.

'Maybe if you'd have had some decent parents to teach you growing up.' He said coldly.

A hot tear ran down your face and you almost throw up your entire digestive system. Did he really just say that?

'Steve.' You whisper.

you run off towards your room, not stopping for Natasha on the way.

'STEVE YOU FUCKING IDIOT!' Natasha yelled.

As soon as you got to your room you slam the door and lock it as quick as you can. Your brain was all fuzzy with the horrible nightmares that were flooding back into your brain. Hydra, the controlling, the fights. It wasn't you. You didn't do any of the stuff they made you do. But the only thing you could think off was back to your old ways.

You'd come clean of self harm when Natasha came to love you but all your head was saying is 'you deserve it', you couldn't take it. Before you knew it your hand was reaching to the draw where you used to keep your b!ades. The bathroom door was locked as soon as you got inside and your body collapsed onto the cold hard floor, steaming tears streamed down your face as you shook before taking the b!ade to your arm. It was deeper than it had been before, more painful than before. Natasha was banging on your bedroom door,

'Y/N OPEN THE OPEN THE DOOR PLEASE!' She yelled at the top of her lungs. You could hear the pain in her voice, she knew what was happening, 'Y/N PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR' She screamed again.

She wasn't having it anymore, you heard the door break down and her run inside only to stop when she realised you weren't in there. At this point you could feel yourself getting weak, everything was dizzy, what was happening?

'Y/N!' Nat yelled again as she sprinted over to the bathroom door. Again she pushed straight through it. That was all you could remember, a small pool of blood, Natasha pushing down the door, yelling and then nothing. Darkness.

A few hours later you woke up in Bruce's lab (aka the tower hospital). Your arm was wrapped up and there was an IV in you feeding fluids into your bloodstream. Natasha was asleep next to you, her hand gripped to yours. She suddenly woke up,

'Y/n, hey baby. You feeling ok?' She said in a sleepy voice with a smile.

'Hey bubs, I'm hanging in there. What happened?' You ask.

'Well you and Steve got in a fight and he said something he shouldn't have, you got very understandably upset and hurt yourself for the first time in a while, quite bad may I add. After I got to you, you blacked out and from then on Bruce stitched you up and now we're here.' She paused and sighed, 'please never ever do something like that again y/n, I can't even begins to explain how scared I was.'

'I hope to not feel the need to do anything like that again Nat. And as long as Steve stops being so cold with me, I most likely won't.' You say shakily.

Just at that moment a very nervous looking Steve walked in.

'Um, hey y/n. Im really sorry for what I said, I had no right to say that and I know why. I hope we can be friends?' He says looking at his feet.

'It's ok Steve, I'm sorry for screwing up the mission by accident.' You reply.

All of a sudden the whole herd piles into the room all looking very happy that your awake. You have small talk and then Nat tells them all to do one so that you can rest. After they all leave Nat crawls into the bed with you and leans in for a kiss. It turns into a deep amorous one instead.

'You know I love you y/n?' She whispers into your ear.

'I know you do. But do you know I love you more?' You say smiling into her neck.

'Impossible.'

'Tony you own me $50!' Someone yelled from behind the door.

'WE CAN HEAR YOU SAM!' Both me and Nat yell in sink.
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Sorry I've been so inactive, I haven't had any motivation whatsoever but then suddenly got this idea and had to do it. Let me know how it was!