Dear Journal,
I feel bad.
I'm not...used to feeling a lot of things. Especially not all at once. It's usually numbness or depression. But my spectrum has been expanding over time, and now there's a whole plethora of things that...mess me up.
And right now, I feel bad, because I made Ars feel bad, but I also feel bad because I'm a confused mess right now.
Ugh...
...I wish I was with Ars, though, because then I could feel at ease...
...I wanna see him smile...or laugh...or...hold him in my arms again...
...When I'm with Ars, I feel like I can breathe again...
...I feel happy.
...
...Is this...
I wonder...
~Yohio
