safe place

me

Another month

When you thought your mom would be the one to understand you but she ended up being the person who hurts you the most.

Looking at my parents thinking how beautiful how their life would be if they had a better child.

Tired of reaching my family's expectations

Me comfoting someone even though i'm the one who needs comfort.

I feel like i'm already tired for tomorrow.

Just bc I can handle it doesn't mean I deserved it.

When u realized no one really give a sh*t abt you and u just stand there watching them pretend that they care for u.

My emotions are so messed up already, I haven't been feelin happy or sad i've just kind of been existing and I don't really know what to feel.

People don't understand how stressful it is to explain what's in your head when you don't even understand it yourself.

You think I smile bc i'm happy but in reality i'm just faking it so u don't have to worry abt me.

I'm exactly the type of girl that has a smile on myself while having countless scars on my wrist.

I hate those moments after crying where I sit emotionless.

All I want to do rn is crt and scream and let it all out because it's killing me inside, i'm just sick of pretending to be happy.
"I just want you to understand that i'm an unhappy person.

What screws us up more in life is the picture in our head of how it's supposed to be.

Why do I have to try when I know I am gonna fall.

I'm so tired of trying :/

Overthinking might have killed me inside but I was never wrong.

I am waiting for things that ik they are never going to happen.

We can do 99 things for someone and all they remember is the one thing we didn't do.

I will always say sorry even if it's not my fault.

I am this 🤏 close to give up on everything.

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i guess year 2021-2022 is the hardest part of my entire life