15) doubts

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Days passed by all just being Lexa training Mira and the group while Clarke was in Arkadia trying to keep herself from falling a part. Lexa and Mira started to get pretty close, Mira kept looking for her mom, but never realized she didn't have to look far.

Mira

Why is it so hard to find my mom? Like seriously it looks like the clues are hidden on purpose, maybe I should just stop looking, see what crosses my pad, and just enjoy the amazing time I'm having god Lexa is amazing. Right when she was thinking about Lexa, someone knocked on the door and it was her. It wasn't a surprise that she was coming because they had planned a sleep over. It's kinda weird tho, but I'd really wanna have a sleepover with her so I said yes. Lexa told me everything about all the past commanders and I loved hearing all about it. Around 11 pm we went into bed and talked for an other hour just gossiping about everything. All of the sudden I realized it while looking at Lexa's smile everything fell at its place. No way it can't be, I could just ask her if I'm right? But what if I'm not? And is she is, would she still like me if she knows? Or does she already know? So many questions popped up in my head, but I was to scared to ask a thing, because I love the relationship we have right now and she must've not taken the role of my mom for a reason.


Clarke

I can't do this anymore, I have to go to Mira, I just can't handle the world without her, but I'm still here it's been weeks and I still haven't actually went up to her and as much as I've been denying it, I know that that is because I'm not ready to see Lexa, to see her without being able to talk to her, it's just so hard and I can't fall apart, not for Mira. I've been debating about going to polis in my head every night for two weeks straight, since the day she left. You know what I'm just gonna go, I mean I've no idea for how long Mira is gonna be gone, maybe she'll never even come back if I don't give her a push. The idea of her becoming the next commander makes me wanna puke, I really don't want her to have a live without love just like Lexa. So I left right away even tho it was like 12 pm, I didn't care and I knew I would just be lying awake anyway.

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