Lonely without you

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Jimin had got on a train and just travelled to it's last destination which happened to be a small beach town. He had a face mask on and sunglasses and had bought a cheap black non descript Hoodie, he didn't want to be recognised.
He trailed along the street until he came to a cafe, he went in and ordered a coffee he wasn't hungry even though he hadn't eaten all day.
The woman who served him glanced at his suitcase,
"Holiday?"
"Erm not really, I'm looking for somewhere to stay."
The woman sensed something was wrong but didn't want to pry," my son has just moved out of the apartment above here, it's clean but basic you could stay there if you want?"
Jimin turned sad but hopeful eyes up to her ," yes please,"
The woman told him the rent which he thought was low, he pulled out his wallet paying for a month and giving extra," Erm if anyone asks you haven't seen me?"
The woman nodded but went to give the extra money back, Jimin stayed her hand," No please , you don't realise how much this means,"
"Whatever it is dear it will work out, here is the key and here some bits of food it's the side door."
Jimin thanked her and went to the apartment liking it's coziness and the fact that just across the road was the beach.
He sat down on the sofa, his hands clasped together willing himself not to cry but it engulfed him to the point that huge sobs burst out, he felt such pain and worthlessness. It hadn't even been a full day and he was lonely without his husband......., husband, this morning he'd been so happy at the word now....., was he still a husband? Kookie had said it wasn't legal here, did that mean he wasn't thinking to be his husband anymore...., is that why he was so angry at him? He didn't want him anymore right, he didn't like his clumsiness and tears, maybe these last six months he'd regretted what he'd done in America.
Jimin sat for hours, not noticing the chill or the darkness of the night.
Two weeks, two weeks and no lead, Jungkook walked around like a ghost missing Jimin so much, his band mates kept an eye on him after he blacked out from stress. Their manager had been told and Jungkook also informed them that he was to be informed first if they found him , they had tried to say RM as leader would be told until with RM by his side he had coldly informed them Jimin was his legal husband so they better tell him first, after the initial shock they had nodded at the distraught male.
"Jungkook come eat," Jin said to the worried male.
"How can I if I don't know if he is ....you know when he's stressed he doesn't eat...."
"All the more reason why you should in case you have to take care of him when he's back."
Jungkook reluctantly sat with the others and ate his mind as always on Jimin.
He went back to their room, his mind on Jimin he tripped realising that the object was the game controller he'd thrown down in anger, picking it up he looked at it, this he thought was the cause of all their problems ....., no he corrected , he was the cause, if he'd put this away Jimin wouldn't have tripped and hurt himself the jug wouldn't have smashed he wouldn't have picked on Jiminee and said those hurtful words and they would right now be cuddling in bed, Jimins sweet body pressed against his, those tasty plump lips......, argh! He willed his mind to stop thinking dirty thoughts . Sitting on his bed he played memories of Jimin in his mind a smile appearing as he thought of the others cute giggles, he slumped down gradually drifting off to a much needed sleep.
His phone ringing woke him up he gazed at the time, and looked at his phone which said unknown number, he picked it up," hello?"
Silence greeted him," hello is anyone there?"
Again silence.
"That's it it's 2 in the morning, whoever you are I'm putting the phone down..."
"Kookie,"
"Jimin! Baby where are you we have been looking all over please, are you ok , I'm sorry , I'm really sorry for my temper, I didn't mean it something else had made me mad not you."
A giggle came through the phone and Jimin sounding like he was humming a song.
"Jimin are you ok? Are you drinking?......"
"Yay, you guessed! Your so clever Kookie I expect that's why I annoy you I'm so dumb at times,"
"No baby your not dumb and you don't annoy me."
A suddenly crying Jimin spoke," you told me to go you said it's not legal all these months I was so happy but you......"
"Jimin please I am happy only with you please come back, punch me if you want, hit me I deserve it I was awful  I let my temper get the better of me it wasn't your fault."
"But I made you mad I hate that, I don't want to be the cause of it, I didn't mean it really I know you love that jug....."
"Jimin it's not important, you got hurt is your wrist better?"
Jungkook heard the sound of a glass bottle clunking against a glass.
"Jimin what are you drinking don't make yourself ill"
"Kookie I have a foolproof plan, I drink to forget ,sleep then drink some more it goes round and around.I couldn't remember things but I remembered your number isn't that funny, aren't you laughing you want to forget me and I remember everything about you even when I'm drunk, isn't that hilarious....," huge sobs came down the phone , jungkook frustrated he couldn't be there.
"Jimin do you think you can remember where you are?"
"Of course ....the beach"
"Which beach...,"
"So tired, I'm gonna sleep here now bye Kookie,"
"Jimin no!...."
The line went dead, Damn jimin would catch cold if he sat on the beach all night!!
Jungkook rushed out his room yelling Jimin had called, the other members groggily coming to their doors.
"Did he say where he was?"
"No just a beach, he was drinking to forget....,what have I done to him he sounded so depressed, I need him I need to find my Jimin," dropping to the floor he sobbed the others crowding around him to comfort him.
"Did he get a new phone where's his number?"
"It came up unknown....."
They all sighed, then Tae took Jungkook to his room and sat by his friend until he finally fell asleep.
The next day they were all gathered eating breakfast when RM got a call from their manager saying fans were asking where the band were as usually they were all over the media, the manager said he was putting everything on hold until Jimin got back he would just let it be known that they were all taking a well earned rest, but he already had a firm trying to trace him.
Jungkook went and lay on his bed not wanting to do anything .he flicked through photos on his phone mostly of Jimin. He smiled at the older ones, both of them shy but even then drawn to each other but in denial, more where Jimin had got bolder only to be pushed away by Jungkook to the point that he had then hung back keeping out of Jungkooks way which made Jungkook realise he wanted the smaller boy.
A group of photos Jungkook had taken on the day they first made love, Jimin was asleep laying on Jungkooks chest his pouty lips and small hands against his skin he looked adorable, jungkook remembered how proud he was to have made Jimin his how with just a look he wanted to be inside the other hearing his sexy moans and gasps for more Jimin was very outgoing when it came to sex.
His phone suddenly rang he saw it was unknown and rushed to answer,"Jimin?!?!"
"K-Kookie, I'm cold,( cough)"
"Jimin please tell me where you are I'll come to you,"
"No, I can't let you waste your life on someone like me, you should have(cough) someone who is good for you."
"Jimin your that person, I love you ,"
"Ah my Kookie, I remember when we first met I knew even then you were special to me, it's like I saw nobody but you, do you think I pushed you into our relationship? Was I to full on, is that why you got angry I'm too much( cough) aren't I?"
"Jimin you are everything to me, I wasn't forced into anything, please Jimin you don't sound well, tell me where you are....!"
"I realised that you must feel dragged down by my clinginess, my clumsiness all the bad things about me, if you want I'll file divorce papers in America it can all be swept(cough) away, you can be totally free."
"Jimin don't you dare your mine always!"
"Gotta go Kookie just needed to here your voice, I......."
The phone went dead, Jungkook yelled in frustration. Jimin hadn't sounded good what if he got worse..... his heart thumped heavily, he needed Jimin they had to find him!

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