ABSQUATULATE, tommyinnit

twenty

it was now January 2nd, 2022. wilbur had told me he planned to move to California back in October. he had to wait until his visa got approved. and now it has. i spent halloween with my bestfriends. i got to celebrate ranboo and tubbos birthday here. i spent new years with tommy, aspen, and wilbur.

this past year has been one of the best years of my life. and now, i have to leave that all behind.

we leave today, and i still haven't told anyone. it would hurt them too much. seeing them upset over me leaving would crush me. plus, this is only temporary. ill come back one day.

wilbur just wanted a bit of change. and change could be good. i could make new friends. i could do even more content with no longer having college.

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wilbur knocked on my door, letting me know it was time to go. i grabbed all my bags. i had given mr kitty to tubbo and ranboo, i told them i had some things i needed to do and needed them to look after him for awhile. they didnt bother questioning it.

im going to miss everyone. so much. i didnt notice i was crying until wilbur reached over and wiped the tear on my face. "dont cry. we'll make arrangements to see them again. this isnt permanent." he said with a sad smile. wilbur hated seeing me upset, especially since this time it was because of his decisions.

it was a thirty minute drive to the airport. once we got there it was time to board the plane. i got a window seat, wilbur next to me. i put in my airpods and listened to your city gave me asthma. my brothers singing always seemed to calm me.

i turned my phone on airplane mode right before we took off. i drifted off to sleep thinking about all the memories and friends im leaving behind.

i dont know how, but i managed to sleep through the entire flight. it was probably because i didnt sleep much at all the week prior. we got to the house and brought in our bags. luckily it was still early in the day. wilbur and i went furniture shopping to get what we needed for the house.

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it took a few weeks to unpack everything, including the new furniture. once we were all setteled and decently comfortable with the house wilbur decided to stream.

the truth would come out soon. and i didn't know how her friends back in the UK would handle it. not only did i move to a whole other country, i moved without telling a single one of them goodbye.

this is going to crush them. ranboo and i had only met in person not even a year ago. and tommy. tommys going to be devastated. ive spent every single day with him since i met him two years ago. and i had just gotten close with aspen.

wilbur and aspen had also gotten very close. and i simply cant understand why he would move and leave all of that behind. i learned its better to not question what he does. i just kinda do what he does.

i was tired to i decided to go to bed. i looked at the messages from all of my friends. i couldn't open them. it was wrong to ignore them for so long. but i didnt have the heart to tell them i wont see them for awhile. i fell asleep, thinking of the last time i was with them all.

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January 1st, 2022.

tommy, aspen, wilbur, and i were all at tommy house for the night. tommy and i had been officially dating for almost two months. wilbur and aspen definitely had something going aswell but would never admit it.

we all spent the night hanging out, singing songs, aspen and wilbur played their guitars. we all danced around the house together.

aspen had become like an older sister to me after all the time i spent with her and tommy. i also hung out with just aspen quite i few times. the days tommy would go out and do crazy vlogs and spend the night in a hotel or at i friends, i normally spent with aspen.

i was definitely going to miss this.

as the ball dropped, tommy kissed me. you know, the cliché couple bullshit. but i could have sworn i was wilbur and aspen kiss out of the corner of my eye.

i said a simple goodbye to aspen and tommy. giving them each a hug before wilbur and i went home. once we got home we packed the rest of our things. leaving the following day.

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that was the last i saw tommy and aspen. its been about a month now. i still didnt have the heart to fully tell the others why wilbur and i weren't there anymore.

so, i made a groupchat and texted one simple word, that held so much meaning.

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my favorites <3

absquateulate.

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a/n: and just like that, its over. ive already began writing the sequel where there will be a much happier ending!! its called WONDERWALL,tommyinnit . make sure to check it out :)). ive put a lot of work into both stories and im extremely proud of them both :))