The Good Suicide

Chapter 8

JENNIE

Crying again? Hmmm yeah and not just because I'm hurting physically, but I'm hurting mentally and emotionally. I don't know if I did the right thing, which is surrendering myself to that evil man! Kwon Ji Yong! He's my ex. Most especially he's one of the reasons why my parents died! No one knows what exactly happened that night. Only Him, my parents and I. I never disclosed this to anyone even, Jisoo and Rosé. I just told them lies. I'm so guilty that all I can think is to just lie and let everyone blame me though I think I'm the one who really needs to be blamed. That night was my birthday and I was supposed to celebrate it with my family and friends, but Ji Yong happened! My parents didn't like him from the very beginning, but I did love him so they accepted him with no choice. I was so blind that time. That I didn't even think twice when he always made me choose between him and my parents but one week before that night ? I just realized everything. All my parent's efforts and all their words hit me real hard, but I was late. I didn't get the chance to make it up to them. But still thankful because I got to tell them how sorry I was and how much I love them.

(FLASHBACK)...

I parked my car and went inside Ji Yong's unit. He's still sleeping peacefully so I didn't bother to wake him. Naupo nalang muna ako sa sofa to watch T.V. I was watching when his phone rang. I didn't mind it but I got irritated because it kept ringing, so I picked up the call. I was speechless after hearing a woman's voice.

W: Hi Daddy! It's me Sandy! I miss you already. Last night was tiresome, but I enjoyed it. You never disappoint me.

Jennie: (didn't talk and covered her mouth)

W: Why aren't you saying anything? Oh is your b!tch girlfriend there? I got it. I got to go now, Daddy! See yah later! Rock my world later! Hahaha. I'll be waiting in my unit. You already know the code just come straight inside me, I mean inside my unit haha. Byeee! Muaaah! (End the call)

Jennie: (throw the phone and wiped her tears, get her things immediately and about to go out)

Ji Yong: B-babe??? Hey, why did you throw away my phone? And what are you doing here? I thought you had a family dinner later?

Jennie: (still facing back) A-ah yeah, I just came here for this. (Went to JI Yong and slap him hard)

Ji Yong: fvck!! W-what was that? Why did you slap me, Babe?

Jennie: Stop calling me BABE! We're done now! Don't ever bother to call me!

Ji Yong: h-hey babe! Wait up! What did I do wrong? Tell me, please don't leave me. I'm sorry if I made you mad. Please. (Hug Jennie from behind)

Jennie: (removed Ji Yong's hands and pushed him really hard) Back off! Don't ever touch me! You disgusting piece of sh!t!!! I-i don't want to see your face anymore! We're done and this! (remove her necklace that He gave to her and throw to him) give that to your fvcking buddy! What's her name again? Sandy? Oh yeah it's Sandy! By the way she said that she'll be waiting for you in her unit and don't forget to rock her world!

Ji Yong: Oh sh!t!!! B-babe let me explain first. Please?

Jennie: explain what? Explain how you rocked her world? Seriously?!

Ji Yong: Okay, I got it. You're just mad for nothing. We just fvcked twice! So what? You're mad? But can you blame me?! You can't even give my needs! I've been waiting for so long! I-i already gave you so much time, Jennie! But you want me to wait for another year?! That's bull$h!t!!! I'm a man, Jennie! You know I have my needs! (Shouts)

Jennie: For Pete's sake Ji Yong! All I did was to love you and give you my time! I even poured all of me on you! All I asked is to give me time for that one thing! For I am not ready to do so! I'm still young and I do still respect my parents! What will they say or think of me if you impregnate me at this age?!!