university, a time of confussion (love story)

chapter three.

CHAPTER THREE

present

The person I've been avoiding is right in front of me. My eyes go wide. "hey Nathan" I say with a non convincing smile. After we broke up and after everything that happened during summer I really just wanted to not have to see him for a while. But of course, destiny has a different idea. I look up at him again and I see his grin, god, why does he have to look so damn good? I thought that Oliver had helped me get over Nathan, but this is the exact moment when I realized that that wasn't the case.

"Are you in a hurry? I thought maybe we could talk?" he says.

I try and not look into his eyes, I don't want him to see that maybe I'm not over him, he cannot have that power over me.

"I actually am. I'm late to class. My classroom is that one" I say pointing to the door.

"Oh, okay. But I really want to talk later. I'll text you. How does that sound?" he says. He leans closer and extends his long arm and opens my classroom door, which is right behind me. I can't help but feel butterflies having him this close to me.

"Sounds good" I say and enter the room. I go inside and find my classmates staring at me, I hate this kind of attention but somehow I always end up getting it. Because of my family, everybody in my town seems to know who I am, which I don't really like and I always find people staring at me at random times and I also hear whispers about me every once in a while. For some reason people care about what I'm doing, what I'm wearing, my makeup and all of that kind of stuff. But it's so odd since people don't really want to talk to me, I have thousands of followers on instagram but in real life people don't really talk to me.

I walk down all the way down to the first row and find an empty seat next to a girl who was sitting alone, her name is Monica and i've known her my whole life, were friendly but were not friends. She was also staring at me. This is my first class of the semester and its Ancient Architecture class. Every semester we have a history class that has to do with architecture and they're always my favorite, I just think that history is fascinating, especially in architecture because everything that happened in the past has taken us to how we design right now.

Soon after I sit down class starts and everybody finally stops staring at me. Everybody knows that Nathan and I dated so maybe them seeing us talking when we are no longer together has taken them by surprise, it sure surprised me. I try to focus on my class but the only thing that I can think about is Nathan. Why does he want to speak to me? Why now? What is there to say? He sure didn't want to talk to me when he was with that other girl.

This is so frustrating! I worked so hard to be over him, just for him to show up whenever he wants, maybe he doesn't get as attached to people as I do, but it's not fair to me.

I knew he'd miss me once the thrill of being with someone else expired, but I hoped this would have been before I had finally gotten over him, or at least I thought I did.

My class passed so slowly and I hated that I couldn't pay attention to my favorite class because of him. I stared at the pictures my professor put in his powerpoint presentation and tried to focus but i can't. I'm getting really nervous about this talk that Nathan wants to have. I think im kind of mad at him, but I don't know, I've always been really unsure about what i'm feeling.

Class passed slowly but surely and before I knew it the bell was ringing. Monica touches my shoulder before I could get up and escape as fast as I could so I turned around to face her. She has a worried look on her face.

"Whats up?" I say

"Well I just wanted to make sure that you're okay. You were shaking your leg the whole class. And I know that we're not really friends but if you ever want to talk I'm here" That's actually really sweet from her. I never disliked her but it's true, we've never been friends.

"I've just had some unexpected people talk to me, that's all. But thanks for asking, that's really sweet of you" I said

"Yeah, no problem. I actually noticed that you didn't take notes and you usually do, do you want me to send you mine?"

How does she know that I usually take notes?

"That would really help me actually. I was really distracted so I really couldn't pay attention. My email is " I responded

"I'll send them to you then" she said with a smile

"Thanks again. I'm going to have to pay you back for this. If you ever need anything like help with homework or note im your girl. I'm usually so attentive in class, today has just been one of those days" I give her a shy smile.

"Sure will" she says and leaves.

I take a couple of seconds to get up and leave, but the time I reach for the door the classroom was already empty.

God I just can't wait for this day to be over but it's only beginning.