wc :: 1691
i just finished watching the devil judge and jinyoung as ga on was superior :0
you loved your therapist. not in a romantic way, you just loved how well he knew you. he had been your safe place since your parents broke up when you were 5 years old.
"hey y/n! long time no see." jinyoung, your therapist, greeted you. "good morning! sorry for not coming at all this month, i've been extremely busy with university and exams."
"don't worry, i know you good enough tio understand that you're gonna hate yourself if you don't get the best grades." he chuckled.
he chuckled. he was so cute when he laughed...
after catching up with jinyoung, the conversation was lead to your greed for high marks. he knew damn well you were constantly in need of academic validation and he even knew why, but it seemed like you were neglecting the reasons that made u reach this place.
"you do understand this is all based on your trauma, right?" he pointed. you looked at him expressionless. "i do cry in every session if ours, but i wasn't expecting the mental breakdown so early~" you hald said half cried.
"even mentioning it makes you feel like this. shouldn't we work on it?" he asked but before you could give him an answer he continued "did you ever get validation from a close person of yours? or was there a person you wanted to get validation from but never did?"
"well, my mum was always really violent to me when dhe was drunk but she was understanding and sweet when she didnt have alcohol, you know that, and my dad... well he did what he did, but he certainly didn't show me affection at all..."
"mmhm, i remember. have you ever found yourself thinking about it or searching for father-like validation?"
"gosh i've never talked about this to anyone~" you whispered. "you know secrets stay secrets here." he pointed out.
"well all my ex boyfriends were significantly older than me... and i never felt like i really loved them, i just needed them there, you know?"
"okay, then what about them? did they love you? what do you think?"
"i think some of them did. but i couldn't feel the same and it was uncomfortable for me when they tried to spice things up." you were blushing like crazy.
"you have thought about all of these things and you haven't realised you have daddy issues?!" jinyoung asked, not in a therapist way, but more in a friend type of way. he seemed genuinely surprised by your neglectful self.
he looked so cute when he acted in a friendly way.
"gosh i feel like you're my friend judging me- but... no? i always see people rant about not having had a father figure growing up, but i never really felt that way? at least not the way they describe it. so i ended up thinking i wasn't like them."
"friend?" he said, looking disappointed.
"did i cross the line? i'm- i'm sorry, i didn't want to make you feel uncomfortable. i just feel really safe around you after knowing you for so long and—" you stopped for a moment to catch your breath.
"this isn't show me the money, y/n, breath in and out..."
"— and i've liked you for the longest time."
you were sure time froze at that moment. he looked at you, directly into your soul and you were just sitting there, looking pathetic while waiting him to say something.
"don't say that." he replied. his voice was suddenly deep and raspy, if a voice could kill, you would be dead right now.
"don't say that without thinking about the other's feelings, y/n."
