our empires on fire..

..some comfort is needed..

minutes felt like hours, hours felt like days, days felt like weeks and weeks felt like years.. that day was one shadow despised greatly.. the day that everything changed.. him, techno and Phil all moved into a secret house that was in the middle of the artic sort of. Well the out scurts more so. Phil moved between houses coming to visit techno and shadow often while helping and gathering materials of his own. everyday seemed to feel more challenging than the other for shadow. He never really left his room in the house or much less ate.. Shadow spent his days in his room sitting on his window sill maybe watching the sunset but a lot of the time he was playing guitar it was one of the few ways he could remember Wilbur. As he sang some of his songs and some of his own ones trying to figure out the beat and melody. Another was the new friend he came across not to long ago.. He was called Ghostbur.. somewhere after Wills death Ghostbur appeared.. shadow likes to think of him as younger Wilbur.. he learnt that he only remembers the good times and thankfully he remembered shadow.. But still most days it just wasn't enough.  Shadow would some times see the blood on his hands even if there was nothing there. His breathing would hitch and quicken as his hands would start shaking and cover his ears trying to stop the sudden ringing that would come.. of course he likes to say he sleeps it of but in actual fact.. he doesn't know how he calms down from something like that. he believes he passes out somewhere along the line due to his body not getting enough oxygen properly.

although even if it was hard to see there were still some days where it was nice. Shadow got to sing his songs and play guitar with Ghostbur, he added to his journal a lot more, Tubbo seemed to be doing decent at being a president even if he is just a kid and shadow and techno would travel a lot trying to get totems. Techno couldn't go to lmanburg though  he was now wanted and Phil was placed on house arrest well he assumed that since if he goes to visit Phil hed notice something on his leg plus quackity and tubbo where always with Phil so..

Today was a night where shadow would go visit Phil and Techno would tag along. It was simple really if there was a knock on the door shadow and techno would scatter down to Phil's basement or would simple just drink and invisitabilty potion. And so far that plan was working. It was really late anyway so the boys had no need to worry. It was always fun getting to Phil's while trying not to get caught Shadow and Techno would race each other making both feel young again. Both ran through Phil's door out of breath while shadow laughed and techno smirked while Phil recovered from his heart attack 

"GOD FUCKING DAMMIT! you two idiots scared me." Phil screamed whacking them both on the shoulders slightly. one there the three all settled down Techno and Phil sat talking about what lmanburg is planning while Shadow tried to figure out the writing for one of Wilbur's songs  . Only problem was shadow could barley read it. Normally hed ask Will what it says but... he wasn't there to help him anymore..

"earth to shadow? you alright?" Techno asked. Did he zone out? he shook his head slightly and moved the closer to the two placing the paper on the ground so everyone can see

"I've been trying to figure at the melody for a while but Wills writing is messy as and i cant read it." shadow explained. Look shadow doesn't have to sit here and figure this out he could go play piano, draw maybe even come up with a new invention or even fight dream. But he didn't feel like loosing a cannon life nor can he just leave this piece unfinished. Phil stared  at it for awhile with his fingers on his chin trying to figure it out himself while techno was curious to see if shadow could generally play and sing like he says he can. 

After a while of sitting and reading shadow think he finally figured it out. so he cleared his voice and started strumming the tune on his guitar 

I thought I couldn't love anymore

Turns out I can't, but not for the same reasons as before

I use everyone I ever meet

I can't find the perfect match

Abuse those I love

While I ostracize the ones who love me
Back

shadow had figured out the tune and sang it as if he had heard so many times before. While Phil watched with shock and proudness at his son.. it was as if Wilbur himself was there playing the guitar it was quite comforting to Phil to hear the sound of a guitar being played. Techno watched with amazement as shadow made it look so effortless how he easily changed chord going from to straight to another. What they didn't expect was the amount of emotion to erupt from the boy as the ending arrived. 

And I hate to say it

But your sister was right

I can't focus on the future only my short sight

I hate to say it

But your sister was right

I'm a wanker

Complete wanker

A fucking waste of time

soon shadows playing stopped not to long after the ending.as he took in a big breath of air and tears slowly starting to fall. he tried to quickly wipe them away his mind begging for them to stop but it didn't listen. Phil slowly walked towards shadow and wiped the tears that formed on the youngers face carefully moving the guitar away to the side. His hand stayed on shadows face as shadow couldn't help himself but lean into the touch having it been so long ago that he felt such warmth. Phil's arms quickly wrapped around him as his wings hid them both from the outside world. Techno soon moved closer placing his cape around shadow and his hand only the boys heading trying his best to offer some sort of comfort.. emotion's weren't techno's strongest area but just having there was fine by shadow.

As the night went on all three eventually fell asleep by accident. The sunrise soon greeted them. as the orange and pink hue over took the sky. leaving the house filled with warmth and safety. Ghostbur came in early and saw the three on the floor smiling to himself he grabbed a blanket and draped it around Phil and techno  and left locking the door and carrying on his day.

Sometimes the universe can be kind.. Even if its for a short amount of time.