Okay, so recently I have been feeling very dysphoric. It's been agony. Everything about myself I hate. My... Chest, my bottom area, my hair (thank the gods that I got my hair cut), and like I recently had my cycle and that was pure torture.
And then there is the fact that my parents don't know. I'm completely afraid of telling them because I KNOW they will give me the whole its a phase talk. Just like when I told them I was pansexual.
And... I wanna be on Testosterone... I want to transition but like I can't. There is so much happening.
I came out to my friends and they accepted me. I feel so much happier that at least someone knows and right now its frickin spring break and I seriously want to go to school (because I can be me).
Thank you so much for reading this! And, if you ever need anyone to talk to you can always message me. I love to talk and yeah... Relating to people. Love you all so much!
UPDATE FROM OLDER ME: I am on Testosterone! Which definitely helped most of my dysphoria. However facial hair is something that makes me feel uncomfortable. I still keep my hair a certain length because if it gets too long it makes me feel very dysphoric. Even being genderfluid I tend to lean closer to a fem boy nonbinary kind of bean. You will figure yourself out! Thats why I am not rewriting my chapters I'll just add a postscript and then keep writing. Hope you are doing well! And, remember I am very proud of you. (This was the last chapter I had written when I was 16 so, now you get a 22 year old me writing the next chapters lol, no longer a baby trans bean lol)
~Wolfie
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Dysphoria *An LQBTQ+ Diary
Teen FictionI am trying to find a way to deal with my gender dysphoria and other things in my life. I created this late at night. 1:11 AM actually because part of what was keeping me awake was the increased feeling of... not belonging and other hard to explain...
