Ever since the accident I have been battling with my depression. There are days where I wake up and just want to end it all. I don't deserve to live, not after what happened with dad. The caretakers in the rehabilitation clinic tell me it's alright, when clearly nothing is. He's dead and I won't ever be able to apologize. He won't see me get engaged, married, have children and all the other things that make it worth living. And mom. Mom is done. She pretends that everything is fine, whenever she comes to visit me, but I know it's not. Mom loved Dad and he loved her. They deserved their happy end more than anyone else.
"Remin?", a voice called out to me. I looked towards the door where my boyfriend was standing. My hand started shaking. He rushed over to me and hugged me. While cupping my face, he gave me a kiss. He sat next to me on the bed and took my hand. "I am so sorry baby. How have you been?" A tear after another rolled down my cheeks and I pulled him into a hug.
Ethan and I started dating six months ago. We met at an coffee shop where I was working at the time. He asked me to be his girlfriend after a few dates and I agreed. Ever since than a lot of things have happened. I moved in with him a few weeks ago. It might be early, but he was very eager and my parents supported me. While hugging him, I tried everything I could to avoid looking at his green eyes, that I once was in love with.
It was nearly midnight when I found myself standing at the edge of the rooftop. The wind kept blowing my hair into my face. I was crying. Again. I don't even know how often I have cried these past few days. I am so done. With life. With living. With overthinking. With everything. I wanna escape it all. My dad, who keeps haunting me in my dreams. My mom, who's pretending like everything is fine. My boyfriend, who keeps abusing me. Yes. Ethan was abusive. He had hit me and manipulated me multiple times. At first he was charming and all, but when I suggested that we take things slower he'd start acting weird. I was scared so I tried breaking up with him, but he wouldn't let me. In the end he forced me into moving in with him. No one knows how he really is. No one can save me now.
,,Are you really gonna jump?", a deep voice asked from behind. I turn around and meet his teal colored eyes. He had dark hair and tattoos covering his left arm. "And who do you think you are?" Remy asked even though he surprised her. He looked at her with an smirk"Says the girl who's standing at the edge of the rehab-clinics roof. I mean look at you with your hospital gown, messy hair and tears streaming down your face." She felt offended, but she knew that he was right. "I am not a monster to ignore a person who needs help. I mean look at you. Sure you have your reason to end it all. But wouldn't it make more sense to make the people you love proud and show the ones who drove you to this edge, that you can live without them?" Remy and the handsome stranger looked deep into each others eyes, when she spoke "Who are you? A philosopher?" He chuckled. "No I am Alexander. My friends call me Alec." While taking the hand he held out, she asked"Since when am I your friend, pretty boy?" Once again he smiled at her softly. Remy felt her heart racing a little faster. "I am Remin."
This was my very first memory of him.
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Cruel Poison
RomanceIt was him. It was her. Silence underneath the stars while their hearts were racing. Day by day, he lied and she believed. He lived while she died. The moment they found each other they found life. He was cruel, she was his poison.
