All i wanted was you

The end

Didn't updated since long time i guess
Im writing this in 15th of February
When everything between us ended..

After the last chapter, we really got closer to eachother , we started talking in school hallways more, school was about to close for 2 weeks so i did his birthday many days earlier
And at that day, it was exactly
" 23rd of december/2021 "
After I've done a birthday to him

Ava: its your birthday can i hug you
* jack openes his hands and smile *

This time, this day this moment i never felt happier, it was the safest place i can ever be in.

even after this i had a biology class and i was so happy about the hug and i was just smiling and the teacher was like
Ava you're not focusing and he started laughing at how my mind is literally somewhere else and said it's probably about love
That whole day was my favorite, we spent a lot of time together laughing and talking, after this we even became more close friends
He added me to his cf on insta and private account and private sc story
And we were talking almost everyday or at least send tiktoks to eachother
And waiting for aot episodes to release and talk abt every single episode

And suddenly he said a joke or smth

Ava: There's no way im in love with you I'm sure i mistook you with someone else jack: you have to move on, i have a gf

Ava: r u serious?

Jack: yes sorry to tell you that
Ava: since when?
Jack: December
Ava: why didn't u tell me
Jack: I didn't want anyone to know, she will be my gf one day, and she's mine

This convo..
it teared me apart , it made me lose my sleep that night and I cried till sunrise and went to school, I didn't eat for 4 days straight, i s3lf h@rmed again ..
Even tho i was trying to heal from s3lf h@rming ..
The second day i was kinda trying to be better and i said thats it if they're happy together i am happy for him
Just how i said it in the ending of the last chapter.. its like i knew it .. anyways,
Just to check that he unfollowed me and removed me from his followers on insta and tiktok

Ava: wait why did u removed me, have i dont something wrong?
Jack: noo
Ava: then why did u remove me
Jack: well nothing
Ava: idk aren't we friends what chaged now?
* seen last week *
Next day in school:
Ava: can we talk?
Jack: another time
Ava: i dont have other rest time we have to talk now
Jack: another time another time I'm busy
Ava: u always said that u respect me.. now u r disrespecting me.. im just seeing a really disrespective person right now
Because i know " another time " will never come, i know him so well he was avoiding me.
Then he looked down and walked
I didn't make it stay in my heart and i texted him talking about how idc that he got a gf if he's happy I support it
and i love our friendship and i respect his  relationship and im over him

And he saw it and said nothing..

Then I thought it's my time to do something not just him so I deleted him from snapchat
And i think our story ends here..

Im trying to heal from you but
you will forever be my favorite,
my story must go on even if it's without you.
Maybe you were just a chapter that i wish i can rewrite, but you were my favorite chapter.
you will have a piece of my heart forever, 
you went and walked away from my life but not from my heart,
i think we were right pieces from different puzzles.

Since you got a girlfriend I just want you to be happy
Even if that means I'm not in the picture nor the frame
In the end he won, because i lost myself.