Guns And Heartbreaks

chapter 5

Alisha's pov:

what if he listened to my conversation?  what am i gonna do. I shouldn't have accepted his call. Okay alisha calm down think you can not let your cover get blown.

He looked at me and he said...

"Uh i have to go" he said looking like someone stabbed him. Yes that's how much in pain he looked. And i know that because im good at reading people

I was soo confused then i realised when i was talking to jake he got a call too nd he was shocked by whatever that other person said to him by the looks of it looks like he is in trouble. Well karma is a bitch. He walked out of the office.

Woah close call. I have to be careful around him. Can't have him finding anything out.

The pretty woman from earlier came after he was gone. I learned that her name was jenny. She offered me to show my office i agreed.

While we were going towards my office she started making small talks
She said
"hey so i know that you are new nd all but i think we can be really good friends"

"I hope so" i said but i knew i would never allow her to get enough close to me to know my secrets. I smiled at her which took a lot out of me mind you i didn't really smile at people so it was really tough but she was a sweet woman two or three years older than me perhaps she didn't deserve my darkness consuming her light. yeah yeah ik too deep but u always think shit that deeply when u have gone through some pretty shitty stuff like me. So i tried to be as sweet as i can without snapping at her.

She asked me "hey when i was going out of the boss's office after u were inside i met the boss halfway nd he seemed really angry what happened did he shout at u? Or fire you on your first day? He is really short tempered nd i won't be surprised if he already fired you. He has done that with a lot of people." She rambled

I held her shoulders nd told her

"Hey hey its okay im not fired yet you don't have to worry"

She calmed down after that nd said
"Im sorry for rambling i just feel sad whenever someone gets fired for little mistakes. Our boss is always overreacting thats not their fault"

It made me almost feel bad for lying to her about myself nd i wasn't even used to feeling emotions. It almost melted my heart seeing how she was caring for me just after knowing me for what? 10 minutes I have never met someone who cared like that for people they didn't even know. It was all new for me i never was treated with that much worry. Sure my mother nd father loved me but at a young age i saw my mother nd father be sure of the fact that i was really strong. So they never really worried about me because i always used to remain so strong and stoic and always handling things on my own. They never had to meddle in most of my affairs because i managed them before they could. I mean it was nice and all but sometimes i used to feel sad that was before i decided to shut my emotions off and became a "cold hearted person" as they call it. They were part of the reason i shut myself off from the world because i didn't like feeling sad i didn't like feeling vulnerable nd waiting for someone to care nd somehow come nd make me happy. That made me pathetic nd i don't like feeling pathetic. But they weren't the whole reason. They think im over everything that happened 2 years back but im not. Nd thats why i decided not to feel anything. Feelings are overrated they are nothing but pure waste of time. In the end you are the only one left to pick yourself up.

I was lost in thinking without realising it. I came to my senses when she shoved my shoulder jokingly.

"What?" I asked her

"Penny for your thoughts?" She laughed

"Nothing just thinking how i made a friend on my first day" i tried to smile at her.

"Damn right you did nd we r gonna have so much fun together" she said

Then she got serious nd said
"Be careful shay noone survives the boss's wrath more than one or two days. And if she is strong maybe one week"

Sooo he has anger issues. Funnn. Okayy  angry bird lets see how many days i last.

"I have to be strong maria bcoz i dont have anywhere to go if i lose this job" i smile nd told her.

I meant in a different way different than she thought at least. I mean i don't have another cover story of i blow this one thats a risk im not willing to take but like a little ball of sunshine that she is she thought the exact opposite she thought i didn't have any job to go to for reasons that were sad.
You get it.

She looked at me sympathetically i know she wanted to ask questions but she didn't which im glad for i really didn't wanna lie to this sweet women.
Now the only thing that is left to do is survive the devil's wrath nd make my place here secure so im sure that my cover won't get blown anytime soon. Nd i have to be really careful which doesn't really count because when u have a double life like mine. Being careful is what helps you survive. And thats my only goal right now. To survive.
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Author's noteee:-

Heyy guys has been a while hasn't it? Soo here is your chapter like i promised a tad bit interesting one. I will probably update two more chapters today nd change the cover to a cool one that is not ugly like this one. Lol i was really bad at editing at that time. But i have gotten better so hopefully u wont have to see anymore of that ugly crap ;) wanna know what happened to alisha two years ago? Your in for a ride. Not to give spoilers or anything but I have so many ideas like now literally but i promise you will like the story. Stay tuned. Dont be silent reader as I have said soo many times i would loveee to hear your opinions. Love you guyssss.

Toodles ;)