Burnt Out || Rengoku Kyojiro x Tomioka Giyuu

[1] Burnt Out

[Told from the perspective of Tomioka Giyuu]

It had been a good two days since Kyojiro left for his mission with Tanjiro and his friends. It was different without him.. Boring and dull. Lucky for me he due home in mere hours. I'm currently coming home from a patrol I had last night. My limbs feel heavy and I'm really tired. I have to tell myself that it's only a little longer until I can be held by my beloved again. Once I reach my estate I look for my keys to open the gate. I turn the key in the lock and swing open the gate.

I was greeted with the sight of a crow perched on a branch near my door. I raised an eyebrow, confused. Did I have another mission... couldn't be, that's not my crow.. My crow is much older... Perhaps Kyojiro's? Did he need to send a message? I spaced out for a moment trying to think of possibilities.

I snapped out of my thoughts when the bird flew towards me, perching instead in a tree that was next to me. I looked at it for a moment. "Hello-" I greeted awkwardly. Turns out I'm not only terrible at interacting with people but also terrible at interacting with crows.

"I have a message of importance!" The crow squawked at me. I squinted a little at it, trying not to be rude about how loud it was being.

"Uhm- alright. Wh-at is it?" I asked it nervously.

Then... It told me something I could never have expected. I don't even know if I can comprehend it. My face was numb. I just kept staring at the crow as it told me the light of my life was killed at the hands of Upper Moon 3. My heart shattered.. But I'm sure that no one looking on would have been able to tell. I nodded at the crow and continued to walk towards the door to my house. I held onto every piece of my composure until I closed the door behind me.

I felt hot tears roll down my face. I couldn't believe it. I didn't want to believe it. He's gone. He's really gone. I heard my own voice choke out sobs. I was frantically gripping at my haori, trying to ground myself. Why was this happening? This meant I'd never see his smile again... The smile that always made me feel welcome and loved. I'd never feel his warmth. He always made me feel better with just a simple hug. His cheerfulness.. He was my light in the darkness.

I looked around the entrance area, my sight blurry from the tears clouding my vision. I saw one of his spare haori's, just as bright as him. It wouldn't smell like him, it had just been cleaned... but it was still something I could cling to. I hurriedly grabbed it and hugged it, still sobbing. Memories flooded into my brain.

The whole reason their relationship had happened was because of Rengoku's confession. It had happened at a bonfire with all of the other pillars. He blurted out his feelings to me and I blushed and told him how I felt as well. I will never forget that warm bubbly feeling he put in my chest when he told me that.

Our first date.. it wasn't anything fancy but it was still special and magical. We had gone to an open field under the moon. We held hands and cuddled in the grass. I felt loved... protected. Something I don't remember having felt since my older sister Tsutako died. We ended off stargazing, and sharing stories about ourselves.

Our first kiss. It was so... enchanting. We were just hanging out in my estate when suddenly, his lips were on mine. I can still remember how warm and comforting it was. When we kissed it was like all the problems either of us had went away.

But all of that was history now. None of it would even happen again. At some point during those flashbacks I was no longer sobbing, just crying softly in a ball, my arms wrapped around his haori. I can still feel the weight of him holding me. And that vivid feeling only made things worse.

Maybe 4 hours later... I came to terms with my harsh new reality. My flame... my beautiful, bright, perfect flame, had burnt out. All I could do is pray I'd see him when I passed on as well. Would he be waiting for me?

For now all I know is I will continue to fight the demons.. For Kyojiro. The light of my life.

Authors Note:  More chapters to come!  Expect an update tomorrow thank you for reading! <3