anchor// ashtray

5

i woke up to my alarm blaring down my ears, i forgot i had school today, fuck.
i looked to my right to see ash had disappeared, he must have just woke up in the night and got on the couch.
i got up and slowly ventured through the hallways trying to find my way to the living room, once i had
managed to find my way in, nobody was even there..
in the corner of my eye i saw a piece of paper and a pile of clothes and some other bits on the table.
i walked over to see that the paper said:
hey y/n we had to go out and sort out some business i left a pile of my clothes and a new toothbrush and there's food in the fridge if you want anything, i will make it to school though so see you there
ashtray x
"great" i muttered under my breathe grabbing the clothes off the table and stumbling back into the bedroom to get changed.

he had left me a black nike tracksuit to get changed into, he wasn't much bigger than me so once i had pulled the strings tighter on the joggers everything looked like it fit me just fine.
i pulled my brush out of my bag and ran it through my tatty hair so it returned to its normal straight self, i dragged myself to the bathroom so i could brush my teeth,
whilst i was brushing my teeth i could feel my stomach swirling around, i found myself feeling excited to see ash, we had been friends for a little while but i had never felt this way about him.

after locking the door i headed out towards the bus stop, i was precisely on time however the bus was not.
by the time the bus arrived my hair was all tangled again because of the unnecessary wind.

the bus ride wasn't long but it felt like it took ages, as the bus pulled up into the lay-by, out of the corner of my eye i saw ashtray waiting for me with a smile plastered across his face.
i didn't think people would realise i was in ashtrays clothes or that there was something going on because we were always together during school anyway, but they did.

"omg y/n? is that ashtrays tracksuit?" the blonde spat.
she was obsessed with ashtray, ashtray told me about her, they dated in third grade and she was convinced they would still get married, she gatekeeps him so much he hasn't had a serious girlfriend since, because they are always scared off.

"yeah she is" ash said plainly before intertwining our fingers and pulling me away.
i didn't know if he did that to spite her or because he liked me and it drove me mad.

first period flew and second dragged, but soon enough it was break time, ash had his lesson in room 23 and mine was in room 3 so we were opposite sides of the building so it only made sense i stopped at my locker on the way to meet him.
i was putting my book back in my locker before i was rudely disturbed by the obsessed blonde.
"are you and ashtray fucking?" she said
i almost choked on my laughter,
"no what the fuck" i said trying to contain the laughter,
"good because if you go near him i'll fuck you up bitch."she said getting in my face before backing up.
i couldn't help retaliate,
"oh really? or what, whore" i said leaning back into her face, at this point people in the corridors had realised we were having some kind of argument and stopped to watch.
"i will fucking come for you" she replied.
"do it you fucking cunt." i said now centimetres away from her face,
"he wouldn't fuck you anyway you're not his type you're just a greedy dirty little who-" she began but i lost my temper, before i knew it i had threw my head against hers, we were on the floor now, i was on top, she lay on the bottom. i was punching her. i couldn't stop. i had all this anger kept inside of me and it was now free.

i was being dragged off her hardly conscious body.
i didn't realise what damage i had done, i never meant to, it was an accident.
i looked up and ash was the person pulling me away, he didn't look angry though, he had this smirk on his face, i think i was in love.

ash's pov
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i was pulling her away, i saw the whole thing from the sidelines.
i hated lily that blonde bitch.
i really liked y/n, even lov- no i'm being stupid, but now i'm worried she's has been scared off by lily, i'm hoping she's hasnt been, by the look of the fight she caused, she hadn't.

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AUTHORS NOTE:
i know i'm slow at updating i'm sorry i've been busy lately i will try at every chance i get to update! please leave your thoughts and any comments you have </3