my diary.

entry 1

16th February, 2022
23:55
Wednesday

Today didn't feel real. I don't know what it was that was so weird about it, but I don't know how to feel to be totally honest with you. This morning started off as completely normal; jolting awake to my alarm that's usually set for 8am, then getting ready for the college day. Got into college and that's when it kind of started. There wasn't many people in today because most of them were at home due to them finishing with their last units. I only had one more task to do, which was to play around with sounds on Ableton. I'm glad those units of work are over and done with, they stressed not just me out but the entire class, since our college don't really teach us, they kinda just give us tutorial videos and expect us to get on with it. It's slightly annoying but not the biggest issue. But anyways, there, I finished up my work and was able to return home. Gladly I live five minutes away from my college, so it's an easy wander back. I got home, set my bag down, put my I.D. up on the key hanger and then stood in the kitchen, lost. It felt really weird being home for some reason. My Dad came back not too long afterwards, joking about if I even went to college. It was pretty funny, but now thinking about it later at night makes me feel kinda bad. Once again, I can't tell you why because I don't even know myself. I then asked him what time he'd be finishing up work, then proceeded to tell him I have a job interview tomorrow (which I'm super nervous for, by the way). He was proud at first, but once I told him whereabouts the place was, he kinda took it like a joke or something. He did this because I worked at the Sainsbury's up near where I'm applying for now; I quit because it was way too much to handle, even if it was my first day. That was horrendous. I need to stop overthinking for tonight before I end up not sleeping though, so goodnight, I'll write again tomorrow. <3