My NOT So Girly Life

"Edge"

                                    

                  As I sat in my car with black ripped jeans and an army tank top I pulled out a picture of my passed father. " Please Dad, help me get this job, I have dreamed of this job my whole life." I whispered to the picture. Knowing my dad was the only one who would accept me I held back my tears. I walked into the store as confident as possible, but with the clicking of my boots it was hard...

                       I spotted the boss and pulled out my chair and sat there. "Hello, Ms.... Jordan Velian. She said with snoot. "Yes, Hello...." I waited for her to tell me her name but she started writing something down in her notebook. "Reflie, Samantha Reflie." She responded slowly. " So I see you are a straight A student and have a record..."             I paused, "Wh- what record?!"             " It says right here, in 4th grade you left the classroom without a hall pass..."   I sat there re leaved, "Oh, that was the lunch food, if you had that 'chicken' that day you wouldn't have the pass either!" I chuckled.. She gave me a straight face and wrote down what looked like a novel, until her pencil led broke. "Dang." Samantha whispered. I pulled out another pencil from my bag and rushed to give it to her... I hope that didn't make it seem too obvious that i'm desperate....

                          "Why do you want to work here at Fancy Fit?" She asked. "Well ever since I was younger I was very interested in designing clothes." She eyed me up and down like she was thinking obviously not...                       An hour of questions went by and she told me if i got the job...

                        "Listen, Ms. Velian.." "Call me Jordan!" I interrupted. "Like I was saying, your past is well, but the way your___ dressed, you may have the edge but not what we are looking for, I am sorry but I will have to let you go for now without this job, but I may over think it." Samantha shooed me out like I was a pest..

                        I got in my car and started sobbing, I honestly thought I would get it. When I got home my Mom was doing the laundry. She looked at me with a sigh.... "Why can't you be more like your GIRLY sister?" I just ignored her and grabbed a flat bottle of Dr. Pepper and went to my room and watched "Cupcake Wars".

                      After many episodes I left the house to go to my favorite mall and shop for some shoes. I came across a beautiful fountain with tons of pennies inside of it. I searched my wallet and found a penny. I hugged the penny with my hands and whispered to myself, "All I want is to be able to be accepted for who I am, or maybe even see how it feels to be Girly for awhile.... I tossed the penny in and turned around and saw my crush, Justin Galion with his friends.... He looked over at me with his blue eyes and waved. He came over and his girlfriend Rebecca did too. 

                                   "How's it going Jordan?" Justin said. "Oh, so now you are cheating on me with a 'GUY'?" Rebecca shoved in. A 'guy' she just said that! Id like to punch the girl out of her..... I walked away "Bye, Justin" I said from a distance. You could see the disappointment in his eyes. I felt bad, but I can't deal with Rebecca today.

                               I began repeating my wish in my head, I just want to be accepted.... Accepted.