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You say "I love you" when you look up from the place you're staring up from between Kaeya's legs.
The desire in his single uncovered eye pure and unmoving.
"Why are you doing this for me" He whispers. Neither he or you are sure if that is a question or not.
"I already told you why," You answer the not-so-question question. You continue with an I love you and a kiss on his inner thigh.
The words don't make sense to him, they don't process in his brain.
That doesn't make anything wrong with him.
He's still perfect in every single way.
And you really want to make him feel okay.
"You're amazing and stunning and adorable and cute and pretty and beautiful in every single way" You let it all spill. You pour down your love for him, warm and intimate and soft and caring.
Kaeya smiles a sad smile, the corners of his lips quirk up slightly and he kisses you and his lips are soft against yours. The air surrounding is filled to the brim, overflowing with passion like when the tides in the ocean slowly roll back in.
Kaeya's slow breaths are like the waves lapping the sand, pulling in and out and in and out, never reaching the beach but just barely brushing it.
Kaeya is a lot like the ocean. Deep and empty, full of life in some places, but lacking in the rest. You are here, there. As a diver, an explorer, lighting up all of his shadowed parts.
You bring the lost to found, and the emptiness to fullness. You fill him up with all of your love, having him whole, every part of him just as loved as the last.
You lay your love for him down and dissect it. Showing him exactly what it means to love. Maybe he doesn't quite understand what there is to love about him. But that's okay. As long as Kaeya's okay, everything will be okay.
