Alone and Pregnant | Loki

Chapter 3

As the months went by, my bump grew each day and my clothes were starting to not fit me anymore, which made me emotional as I couldn't wear them anymore. I also began crying again due to two things: Mobius didn't want to see me again and I am afraid of being a single mother. I'm genderfluid meaning I don't identify with a fixed gender. Because of that, I've decided to give myself a mother role instead.

"Mother..." I sobbed, crying my eyes out.

"What's wrong?" She asked, concerned about me and seeing me like this.

"I can't make these emotional feelings go away." I told her.

"Loki, this is all normal during pregnancy. You're just experiencing hormonal changes. It's alright." She assured me, holding my hand and kissed my forehead. I couldn't stop crying and the more I did so, I felt like I was going to be like this forever.

Two months later...

I was screaming and pushing all day. My water broke 50 minutes ago and it feels like forever since I've been in labor. I took a break from pushing and drank some water with ice in it, pushing some more. Thor assured me that everything will be okay. Hell, even Mother and Odin were present in this birth. Mobius however, isn't and I know he probably wouldn't care to meet his son. Finally, I heard crying in the background and I couldn't believe it.

"Congratulations, Loki. It's a beautiful baby boy." The healer smiled, handing him to me. He looked a lot like Mobius, while he had my eyes and Jotun skin. I started crying tears of joy, unable to say anything.

"He's so beautiful, Loki." Odin commented, very proud of me.

"Anyone would like to cut the cord?" She asked my family.

"I would." Thor offered and he did so. For some reason, I just thought the name Finn would be a perfect name for my son and decided to name him Finn Lokason.

"Any ideas for a name?" Mother asked.

"I think Finn is a great name." I answered, wiping my eyes.

"We like it. Finn, it is." She and Odin agreed. Thor did as well. They all held him and he cried for a bit, calming down quickly afterwards.

Later that same night, I was feeding Finn and while I did so, my eyes were streaming with tears again. It was late out and I was trying to sleep.

While I did so, Finn started crying. I got up from my bed and went to his room. I started wondering what he was crying about. I fed him and nothing. I tried to sing to him, nothing again. He didn't have a fever so nothing.

All night, I continued to try a lot of things but there is no clue. I then checked his diaper and almost fainted at it. "Oh gods!" I shouted, forgetting that my family is sleeping. I then changed Finn and calmed him down afterwards. I sang to him in Asgardian and he fell asleep in my arms. I kissed his head and gently placed him in his crib, watching him sleep, crying already.

"Good night, my sweet boy." I whispered, going back to my room. I laid down in bed, crying my eyes out, holding my pillow and placed myself under there. I didn't want to believe that I was going to spend motherhood on my own for the rest of my life. The next morning, I woke up with dark circles under my eyes and took Finn with me.

"Hey, Brother. I made some Midgardian coffee for us, including you." Thor greeted.

"Thanks." I smiled, my eyes red and puffy. I didn't sleep all night as I wanted to be there for Finn and make sure he's okay.

"Loki, you don't look great yourself." Mother noticed my eyes.

"It's nothing, Mother. I was crying last night." I told her, Odin and Thor. I sighed and took a sip of my coffee. It was too sweet to my liking but I'll get used to it. Finn was whimpering and crying for me, so I fed him and he calmed down.

"All done?" I asked him with a smile. He burped afterwards and I laughed, knowing he definitely is. Finn let out his first smile and I was over the moon about it.

He definitely has mine and I knew instantly, he was definitely my son. As the months went by, Finn was getting bigger and stronger. Odin transformed him the same way he did to me, mainly because we agreed it was best if he looked Midgardian instead. By the time Finn was 9 months old, he began speaking some words. He said his first word last month which was mother and I teared up immediately.

I'm literally grateful for him and that I get to experience motherhood on my own. At first, it was difficult but I knew I was destined to be the best mother in the world. Finn started showing signs of being king and I knew instantly that he wanted that. I told him he couldn't, but because he was too young. Someday, he will be. I know that.

"Mother!" He babbled, raising his hands in the air. I picked him up and began talking to him.

"How is my baby boy doing?" I smiled, and he cooed, babbling.

"He kept asking for you." Odin smiled.

"Is that so? Did someone miss his mother?" I laughed and Finn smiled, hugging me.

"Awww." He and Mother said at the same time. Thor came back and got Finn a cape and a helmet. They were similar to mine and he had a smile on his face.

"King!" He exclaimed.

"More like you'll be a prince." Thor assured him with a chuckle.

"King!" Finn repeated, wanting to wear the helmet. Thor placed it on for him and the cape.

"He's definitely got that from his mother." Mother laughed.

"What a way to turn that around!" I exclaimed, finding it not amusing she said that. I placed my hair out of it's bun and took Finn to the throne and took a picture of him, sitting in it. Afterwards, I got Odin to take a picture of us. Each day I see Finn, his hair is getting more dark and becoming like mine, style wise.

"We need to get these pictures in a painting." Thor suggested.

"We definitely do." I agreed. Finn grabbed his hammer and had a smile on his face.

"King!" He exclaimed. I laughed and handed it back to him. Finn started crying and Thor gave the hammer back to him, which he stopped afterwards. He took it with him and crawled away.

"You know what, Loki?" Odin cleared his throat, about to tell me something.

"What?" I answered.

"I think now is a great time to invite Mobius over. It's time for Finn to know his father and I know he would like to see him." He told me. I gulped, trying my hardest not to get angry.

"Father, you know I can't do so." I calmly said, breathing in and out.

"Why is that?" He demanded.

"Because I don't want him around. Last time I saw him, he called me a bunch of horrible stuff and I don't want to get into detail about it." I explained to him.

"Loki, we know you want to provide everything for Finn, but can't you just do that one important thing for him and let him see Mobius? It'll probably make you two love each other again." Mother suggested.

"Maybe." I sighed, not interested in the slightest bit.

"Loki, in order for Finn to be a prince, he has to have a king and queen." She told me calmly.

"I don't believe in that for Finn. I think he should have both in best of all worlds." I told her and Odin.

"Why would you think that?" He asked.

"Because I'm genderfluid, that's what. Basically I don't have a fixed gender." I breathed, trying not to cry.

"Loki, is that really true?" Thor asked.

"Of course." I answered, tears on my eyes. Mother hugged me, letting me know that it's okay and that I'll always be her son and her daughter. Odin said the same too. Even Thor thought the fact I'm also his sister made him happy too.