The blue lily

Angst-ish ig - Chapter 8

Chapter 8

(Taeyoung POV)
I woke up to a cold breeze coming from the open window. I get up and close it, just realizing that Emma wasn't in bed with me. 'Emma?..' I whispered. I was alone, scared that she left me. I got scared. I went to the study where I had a framed picture with her. It was laying on the desk. I hugged it and fell on the floor. I started sobbing and crying in pain. I thrown the picture and it hit the wall breaking into a million pieces.

My world shattered seeing the picture broken. I ran to it, slipping and falling on my way. I fell in front of it, where broken glass entered my legs. I took the broken frame and hugged it. One of its pieces cut deep my chest.

Blood started to stain my clothes. It was falling all over my body. I looked to my side and took a small fragment from the broken glass. I cleched my bleeding fists. I was laughing in pain. Tears started to fall down my face. I couldn't believe what was happening.

The door of our dorm got unlocked and I could barely hear Emma asking where I was. The door to the study opened. I could barely hear anything. My vision became blurry and I couldn't understand anything that was happening around me. I fell down. The last thing I could hear was a voice.

I woke up in the hospital with Emma sitting by my bed and a nurse next to us. Emma was hugging me tight while crying loudly. 'W-what happened..' I asked scared and confused.

'Miss Taeyoung, you were very lucky to survive a suicide attempt. You lost a lot of blood, but your body regenerated in a few days. You're lucky, young girl' the nurse told me. Emma hugged me tight and kissed my head once, then twice. She was sobbing uncontrollably. I was trying to remember what had happened, and then it hit me.

It was around 2 AM and Emma wasn't at the dorm. I got really scared and thought she left me for someone else. Someone better, someone that would take more care of her than I did.

Emma hugged me tighter than she ever did. I usually am not really touchy, but I could pass on Emma. The nurse left us for some time alone.

Emma sat on the bed and she looked at me a little worried. 'Do you want to talk about it?...' I didn't know what to say. I wanted to apologize, but I didn't want to tell her the truth.

'Taeyoung?... ' Tears started to stream down my face. 'I-I'm sorry..' 'For what?.. ' 'I'M SORRY I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF, I'M SORRY I GOT YOU HERE, I'M SORRY THAT YOU HAVE A ROOMMATE LIKE ME AND I'M SORRY THAT YOU HAVE TO BARE WITH ME AND MY OVERTHINKING AN-' I wanted to continue, but Emma kissed my head and hugged me tight.

'If I ever hear you say such things about yourself, I will literally come to you, put you in my bed and tell you how much I lo- what a good of a friend you are. Never, BUT EVER, in your entire life say something like this. Understood, honey?' I nodded. I couldn't believe that somebody actually considered me a good friend. I felt like she could do better.

I thought she did better, but she decided to stay. To remain with the mess that I am. That made me feel kind of better. She hugged me tight again. 'I'm sorry for the pro-'She covered my mouth. 'No. Stop apologizing for everything you do, please...'

I hugged her. It felt just as safe and warm as it did for the first time.