The blue lily

Chapter 10- My "best friend"

Chapter 10

(Taeyoung POV)

Today it is the 7th. Emma and I wanted to go on a fun little trip to the park. I was constantly asking myself if this is a date or not, but I still went because, It is Emma, come on now.

It was a park nearby, nothing fancy, but I was really excited because I haven't been in that park since I was young. Emma saw that I was really excited and pat my head. I ran to the entrance and sat on a bench really close to it, so Emma won't lose me. I got my headphones out and stuck one in my ear.

Emma came and sat down next to me. I stuck the other earbud in her ear and we listened to music together. Outside it was a cold soothing breeze. The sun was shining and the birds were chirping. Flowers were dancing and bees were collecting their pollen. I loved to be with Emma. I loved it. I was enjoying the moment as much as I could. It was calming.

But a thought popped up in my head that ruined my whole mood. School is ending in a few days and you haven't confessed, you might not even see her again after the year is over.

I thought to myself. I couldn't think of something else. I hugged Emma tight and buried my head in her chest. She hugged me back, just as tight, and kissed my head. I loved her. (I don't even know how many times I have said this).

I am in love. I don't care if she doesn't accept me, OR my confession. I WANT her. Not even want, NEED her. She is my only source of happiness. I can't live without her. She keeps me alive. She cares for me. She is there when I need her the most. She never left my sight. She was right behind me, ready to help me and to make me feel better.

I was keeping myself as close as possible to her. She was so warm. I started to wonder how warm would her body be without clothes. I blushed at the thought. 'Taeyoung, dear. Why are you blushing?' Emma asked with a smirk on her face. I didn't respond and continued thinking.

After some time we went and got some Ice cream and went back to the dorms. I just realized that all we did was to sit and eat something, but it was enjoyable too.

Once we reached our dorm, I just plopped myself onto Emma's bed. It was so comfortable. 'You can change into your pijamas and then we can go to sleep.' She smiled. Her innocent smile was beautiful. I did as she said. I entered the bathroom and changed my clothes.

When I got out, Emma was sitting on her bed with her arms open. I don't think they were open for me, but I snuggled in between them and made myself comfortable. Emma cuddled me and kissed my head. She was so nice and caring. I slowly drifted into a comfortable, warm slumber.

It was me, and her. Hugging and keeping each other close and warm. We were kissing once every five minutes. Sometimes even a lot less time apart. It was enjoyable and pleasurable. I sure loved it. I couldn't think of nothing else, except her. I loved her. I wanted her to be mine...

I woke up, once again, alone in my bed. I checked the clock. It was 7 AM. This time I was sure that I wasn't alone because there were water sounds coming from the bathroom. I knew Emma was brushing her teeth and I wanted to go and hug her, but my feet didn't feel like it, so I remained in my bed.

I hugged my 48 inch tall teddy bear (I forgot to mention my lovely bear that I received as a gift for being born), that was sleeping with me and Emma every night, but left alone once I fall asleep.

Many times I notice that he is on my bed instead of Emma's in the morning. I think she just throws it on my bed because she doesn't have where to stay with it in my back. It was a white bear with a pink tummy and black eyes ( I know, very cool).

Emma came out of the bathroom and the first things she did were to come in the bed and hug me. 'Good morning, Taeyoung, my best friend forever and my roommate' 'Good mornin', Emma...' I said quietly. I hugged her back. We stayed there for a while.

I loved it when we were this close. I couldn't helpmyself but blush. I felt so embarrassed. Tomorrow. I have to tell her.

I cannot keep this to myself anymore. I need....To tell Emma how I feel about her... I need to.. What if she rejects me?! What will I do without her?! I need her to be mine.