It was getting cold but I didn't care. I sat up and dangled my feet in the pool, thinking back to what happened in the halls. I knew I would have to tell Justin someday but I never wanted him to know from Jessie, that phycotic cow. I lay back down and my mind driffed to the time when the 'accident' happened.
It was a few days before my sixteenth, Jessie and I use to be best friends. We were out shopping with her boyfriend Lewis, I alway thought he was a bit weird but I kept my mouth shut, Jessie really liked him and he was her first love. After dropping Jessie at home Lewis insisted that he take me home as it was not safe for a young lady to walk home alone in at night in the middle of autunm. He stopped a few blocks from my house, he parked the car in a empty parking lot and turned off the engine.
"Emm, why are we here?" I questioned, Lewis didn't answer. He just pulled me towards him and kissed me. Of course I pulled back.
"What the hell?" I slapped him but he just laughed. He continued kissing me and well how do I put this..........That son of a bitch rapped me in his car.The next day my family found out, they took me to the hosptial and I got a rape kit done and a pregnancy test , you know to find ouit if he gave me anything I didn't want.
Everytime I looked in the mirror I felt like a slut was looking back at me. Everytime I closed my eyes I seen him, feel his hands holding me down. I went to my bathroom cabinet and took a whole load of different tablets, my mum found me on the floor and back to the hospital I went. I was sent to a shrink and she diganosed me with Depression and gave me tables and told my parents to watch me. When Jessie found out she went mental at me for sleeping with her boyfriend, she told the whole school I was a slut and when she found out about me trying to kill myself she told the school that too.
I felt a tear fall from my eyes and I wiped it away. I heared the gate open, I turned around and Jorden was standing looking angry and kinda sorry. Lewis was his mate at school and when Jorden found out what he did, he almost killed him.
"I heard what happened at school.....You OK Alli?" He asked sitting next to me and hugging me close. I loved the fact that my brother cared enough to check I was OK.
"Yeah, Justin found out though." I said wiping my tears away.
"Oh well, if he breaks your heart, I'll break his head deal?" He smiled holding out his hand.
"Deal." I laughed shaking his hand. Jorden got up and headed inside. I stood up and pulled my cardigen on and headed to my room. I wondered over to my bed and lay down.
I fell asleep, what woke me was Justin walking in and sitting on my bed. I shot straight up and looked around. I think Justin got a bit of a fright cause he kinda jumped.
"Justin what???? What time is it?" I asked sounding really confussed.
"4pm? Sorry I woke you babe." He smiled.
"No, its OK. I didn't mean to fall asleep." I smiled.
"Hi." Justin said to me and kissed me.
"Hi." I whispered between kisses. We sat on my bed kissing for a while. Justin pulled away.
"Are you OK....You know now?" I looked at him confussed. "You know you don't have thoese..." Now I got what he was saying.
"No, Justin I promise. I don't wanna kill myself anymore. This." I pointed to my wrist. " was a genuine accident. I promise you." I looked Justin in the eyes to let him know I wasn't lying.
I'm guessing he trusted me cause we went back to kissing.
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Thank god it was friday. Mum inststed I took wednesday off and go back on Thurday incase I tried anything at school. I walked up to my locker and opened the door and pulled out my history work, as I did a note fell from the top shelf.
Tonight. You and me, I'll pick you up at 6pm, your house. Love Justin xxx
I smiled and placed the note in my pocket. Come to think of it where was Justin Today???
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