Daffodils

9

HRJ'S

"Hyung, I asked him out!" Jisung squealed, showing his and Chenle's conversation on his phone.

"Congrats."

"Go, hyung Ask him out already!" I looked at Jisung, there's no sign of teasing in his face.

"Who are you talking about?"

"Yangyang." I laughed at his remarks, " You're crazy, Jisung."

"No, I am not, and I am serious, date him, I see how you look at him."

"That is called botherly love, my dear friend." Jisung only shake his head, " You don't get jealous to a brotherly love." Jisung mocked Renjun, smirking while looking innocently.

"I told you it's not."

"If that's what makes you sleep at night, then brotherly love it is. Huang Renjun." The younger drop the  'hyung' leaving the older shocked with his eyes wide open.

"Hey!"

"Go away, I'm going to Chenle's!"

He is left at the middle of the school's hallway.

His mind is clouded by the thought of Jisung's words.

And the thought of that questionable thing he did last night, He still comfused why did he have an urge to kiss the younger chines, why did he feel jealousy everytime Yangyang's friend is around, and why did he feel heavy the time he saw Jimin kissing Yangyang's cheeks.

He can't explain why he felt those.

Why he felt annoyed last night when the silver head male was avoiding him, he felt annoyed when Yangyang didn't talk to him.

He can't understand himself

Perharps he is falling for the younger chinese.

"That's impossible." He murmured, "I like girls, I just support things like that, but i am not gay or something." Renjun shaked his head, walking slowly like he was in some kind of movie.

He got into his class, sitting next to the window. He sit there and looked at the busy hallway, as the bell is near ringing.

"Yangie!" He looked back and saw Jimin with Yangyang.

Wow, They are really close.

Yangie...

"Jealous aren't you?" He looked back and saw Xiaojun. "You know i am friends with him for not so long, but I am friends with Monday for long to know her more than anyone." The male sat beside Renjun  looking at him.

"And i can tell she genuinely like him, or maybe love him? I can't tell you." Xiaojun smiled and looked back to his friends laughing together.

Looking at the scene, Renjun's mind is a mess, adding the mockery of his classmate, Xiaojun. He really can't think straight.

He aren't jealous, He can't be.

He is just hurt as the woman call his bestfriend the nickname he let his closest people only call him. He just missed Yangyang that's it.

He isn't jealous, He isn't annoyed, He isn't hurt, He just missed his bestfriend.

"Oh God, Continue convincing yourself you didn't like him, continue giving my friend a chance to have him by herself." His seatmate is messing with her, he knew that.

"Then that is great, No, idiotic and childish kid following me around." He blurted out, making his seatmate purse his lips.

"Really?" He looked up and saw Yangyang standing behind him, he was shock, too shocked to stop Yangyang from walking out.

Too shocked to react to Jimin's words. "You hurt him, once again."

"Wow, I am trying to help you got back together, but I guess, I help another person." Xiaojun said and moved on another seat, living Renjun there head empty, but his eyes full of regrets.

Idiot! Why would you say that!?

Renjun's mind is flying, he can't focuse to his classes, and when it ended he absentmindedly walked out to the room and headed to the parking lot, where he waited for his driver.

When he got home, he throws himself into his bed, snuggling to his pillow. The one that Yangyang used to grab everytime they'll have a sleep over.

"I'm such an idiot!"

Renjun yelled as a tear rolled down to his cheek, "Why the fuck am i crying?" He yelled, as the tears start falling down like a waterfall, falling nonstop.

"I just.." he cried and cried, letting out loud sob since no one will hear him.

She's right, I hurt him once again, and maybe, that's enough.