"namjoon its not your fault" yoongi said too him, teary eyes as the 6 of them sat outside namjoons apartment. namjoon couldnt show a single emotion. he couldnt speak a single word nor make a single facial expression. all he could think about was why jungkook didnt come too him sooner.
Namjoon, Seokjin, Yoongi, Hoseok, Jimin, Taehying, and Jungkook had been friends since middle school. all seven of them would do basically everything together. it wasnt until the start of highschool when namjoon had finally built up the courage to ask out jungkook, the boy he had been drooling over since the start of middle school.
-flashback-
it was a crisp fall morning. the sent of cinnamon apples filled namjoons house as his mom was preparing treats for namjoon and his friends since they all said namjoons house was where their having their friends giving. of corse namjoon and his family didnt mind since they loved the company of his friends and too say the least, namjoon had the biggest house out of the seven of them. each of the boys as well was bringing some sort of food.
but that wasnt on namjoons mind at the time. all he could think about was how to ask jungkook to officially be his boyfriend. luckily, both of his parents were not homophobic and they supported namjoon no matter what the boy did, and to say the least, namjoon was grateful for that. on the other hand, jungkooks father was not fond of people liking the same gender, in fact he absolutely despised it, and if he were to ever find out jungkook was even thinking of a male in that way, lets just say it wouldnt be good.
namjoon sling his backpack on his shoulder and walked down the stairs. "bye mom!" he said too her as she flashed him a sweet smile. "bye honey! text me when your on your way home with your friends so i can make everything perfect for all of you!" she said as namjoon nodded. he bid his last goodbyes before he exited his home, feeling the cool autumn breeze hit his face.
namjoon wore a generic brown sweater, baggy blue jeans and a pair of coffee colored shoes. he wouldnt say he had bad taste in style, it was more that he liked to where calming colors, colors that made him feel at ease. the boy then walked down the street, his earbuds in as his hands sat in his pockets. his house wasnt too far from the school but far enough it took about twenty five minutes to walk there.
on the way he met up with yoongi and jimin since the three of them lived on the same street. "so.. how are you feeling?" yoongi asked as his arm slung around jimin. yoongi and jimin have a little thing going on. they claim their not dating just 'really close' but the way they look at each other says otherwise. but namjoon nor did the others want to but in since its not really their business what the two were up too.
namjoon sighed, seeing his breath linger in the air. "well.. kind of. what if i took the wrong signals and he dosnt like me?" he said too them as they chuckled. "look, jungkook litteraly told me, to my face that he has had the biggest crush on you. you have nothing to worry about namjoon." jimin said, with a smile as he scooted a bit closer into yoongis warm body. "your right, i shouldnt be worried!" he said with an uneasy smile.
of corse he was worried though. he was confessing his love to someone who has stolen his heart, and to say that was nerve racking was an understatement.
it didnt take long until all seven of them were in the court yard. it was quiet. the trees had barley any leaves left on them since the winter season was soon approaching. the air was thick and their breaths lingered through the air. the five boys knew what namjoon was planing so they took this as their cue to get going. "well, ill see you guys, i told my friend id help her with her math homework before school starts" seokjin said as he waved and left the others.
"yeah and me and jimin have to work on our project!" yoongi said as those two then left. "well, i have nothing to really do but im actually really hungry so im going to see what their serving for breakfast!" hoseok spoke, eyeing taehyung as he nodded. "ill go with" taehyung chimed in. now it was namjoon in jungkook, standing under a faded blossom tree that wouldnt start blooming until the spring.
"can i tell-" both boys said at the same time. "you first" jungkook said as namjoon shook his head. "no no.. you can go first" he spoke as jungkook sighed. "i dont know if you feel the same way but.. ireallylikeyouandiknowyouproblydontlikemebackbutijustfeltlikeishoukdtellyou" jungkook said, hisbhead looking down and his fingers violently moving in his pockets. namjoon couldnt help but laugh. "kook, i was going to tell you the same thing. i really like you. more then just best friends" namjoon said too him leaving jungkook too look up. "really?" he said and before another word could fall out of the boys mouth, a warm pair of lips were intertwined with his own. it was official. namjoon and jungkook finally are together.
-end of flashback-
namjoon thought of that memory, hoping he could feel some emotion, but nothing all he could do now was breakdown. he fell into seokjins arms as all the boys sat together and cried. everyone of them, including yoongi cried. they cried together. why did their bestfriend and one boys lover have to end his life.
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sunsetz (namkook)
Fanfiction-and when you go away, i still see you- in which namjoon keeps having reoccurring flashbacks from his passed on lover
