sunsetz (namkook)

and when you go away, i still see you.

namjoon woke up the next morning to an empty bed. that was the first night he officially didnt sleep with jungkook.. except he did. but it was all in his head. its strange. when jungkook goes away, namjoon still sees him. maybe this had somthing to do with that memory box thing the boy kept.

finally namjoon picked up his phone to see several miss calls from his friends. he randomly calls one of them and it so happened to be yoongi. a few rings later.. "namjoon? are you alright? god you had all of us worried sick!" the elder spoke on the other line. "yes im fine. but do you want to know somthing?"

"sure"

"i think i can talk to jungkook in my dreams"

"what are you talking about?"

"well i went to bed and then i was having a full in conversation with jungkook. it was so real. he told me, me and him can communicate through my dreams. i know you probably think im crazy but im bit lying!"

yoongi sighed on the other line. he knew this state of grief and he didn't like that this was happening to namjoon. here are the states of grief but the bad kind.  first, you feel absolutely nothing.. almost like your completely numb when you find the news. the next is you think they are back for you, when in reality its your mind playing games, but it does seem so real. then.. you stop hearing from them and those dreams disappear leaving you to fall into a depressed state, and lastly, they harm or even end their own lives due to their depression, and yoongi cannot let that happen to another on of his best friends.

"namjoon, listen to me carfully. its your mind playing games with you. jungkook is dead, jungkook isn't comming back even though we all miss him so much. i know it probably seemed so real, but please trust me on this when i tell you that its all in your head"

namjoon didnt know how to react because that wasnt what he was expecting yoongi to say. namjoon was far too upset to argue with him so he just let gis breath out. "your right, im sorry. i shouldnt of believed that"

"no, dont be sorry namjoon. its all apart of the stages of grief. why dont you go get some fresh air okay? maybe all of us can go do somthing this friday to hopfully take our minds of the sittuation"

"that sounds good. im going to go take a walk, ill call you later okay?"

"alright, have a good day namjoon and please call any of us when you need too" yoongi finished. the two boys bid their goodbyes before the line was cut.

namjoon did go too the local park though. he had in a light jacket and a pair of blue jeans with basic sneakers. he walked for a bit before he sat down on a small bench. he opened in his phone but it was to only look at his lockscreen. god he didn't know how much longer he could take of this.