The one where you wonder if you and Shawn are more than just friends
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It had been 3 months since the break up. You ended it on fairly good terms, but it still felt awkward to talk to him. What if he resented you? What if he wanted you? So many questions popped into your head when you thought about him.
You had done your best to give him space. It's not easy being broken up with (you knew from experience). Part of you felt a sting of sadness every time you saw him, but you knew it was for the best. Your relationship was moving at a speed you weren't ready for, and instead of pretending and ending up worse off, you ended it where you were at a place you were comfortable at.
Shawn took it surprisingly well. He understood where you were coming from. This was your first serious relationship and you were 5 years younger than him. He was ready for marriage and starting a family, but you weren't at that point. You were glad he took it well because he still meant a great deal to you. And you did see him everyday at work. You were a waitress at a restaurant at the hotel he had been staying at, while he was in LA writing music. You saw each other all the time, but up until now your interactions were slight smiles and waving at each other every now and then. You had hoped you could be real friends with him.
There was a big party happening at the hotel, something to do with a major deal or expansion happening, you weren't quite sure, all you knew was that you had were working and it was insanely busy. There were people everywhere, a lot of people whom you had never seen before. You assumed that these were all business people but with the interactions happening you realized this was just a bunch of random people, some business guys, some famous people and then some regular people.
There was a live band playing, and surprisingly they were quite good. Usually at these kinds of events they just hire the cheapest people but it seemed that this time they actually spent money, and it seems to have paid off with the amount of people on the dance floor.
You were standing at the bar waiting for the drinks to be finished to bring them to guests when a man stands next to you. You look at the face and see that it is Shawn.
"Oh, hey, I didn't expect to see you here" you shouted over the music.
"Why? A party doesn't seem like my scene?" Shawn says smirking. Of course this was his scene, he was a musician, but he was also supposed to be releasing music soon so you'd figured he'd be cooped up in his room for the next little while.
"I just thought you'd be busy, that's all" you shouted again.
"I have been quite busy but I needed a distraction and this seemed like the perfect opportunity" Shawn said as he grabbed a drink off the tray you were about to serve "plus, the booze here is great, it beats me drinking alone in my room".
"Hey, that drink was for a guest" You said giving him sharp eyes.
"Well I am a guest am I not?" He said smirking.
"Sure, but I wasn't talking about you" you said putting all the drinks on the tray, smiling. You positioned all the drinks on the tray and got ready to leave. Shawn reached over and touched your arm to get your attention.
"It was nice to talk to you again. Have a good night" he smiled and walked into the crowd of people. You made your way into the outskirts of the crowd to the tables to drop off the drinks. You started thinking about what Shawn said, it was nice to talk to him. You know it wasn't much but it was a start and you missed his laugh and his smile. The party continued into the night and finally at 3am, your shift ended and you were heading up to your room (you had a room there for when you worked late at night and needed to crash).
As you headed into the elevator and clicked the button with the number 5 on it your eyes started to close. You were exhausted and couldn't wait to go to bed. The elevator dinged and the doors opened to reveal Shawn standing there.
"Oh hey" you said surprised. It was 3am, what was he doing out here?
"Oh hey y/n. Are you just finishing now?" He said looking down at his watch.
"Yeah... it was really busy and the guests took a while to get out. There was one guy who was so drunk he didn't even know his name so trying to get him home was quite interesting" you chuckled a little and so did Shawn.
The elevator doors started closing so Shawn put his hand out to stop it. You walked out of the elevator and stood right next to Shawn.
"So what are you doing up at this time? Seems a little late to be wandering around?"
Shawn rubbed his neck. "Yeah it is, I just was having a hard time focusing. I'm having a hard time with this one song, nothing seems to fit, the lyrics are wrong or the beat is off. I can't figure out what it is, I just know something is wrong". He paused. "I was hoping to just walk around and clear my head".
You wanted so badly to stand there with him and talk more about his song. Or go for a walk with him. Or help him with his song. These are things you would have done if you were still together. But you were not and you needed to remember that.
"I'm sorry Shawn. That's gotta be tough. But if there's one thing I know about you is that you will figure it out. You always have and you always make killer songs. You're so talented, a little bit of writer's block or whatever isn't going to stop that". You smiled at the end. That felt good to say, although you wanted to say more.
"Thank you y/n. I really needed to hear that".
The doors of the elevator tried to close again and you noticed.
"I- uh, I should let you get to your walk, and I should really head to bed".
"Oh yeah for sure. I wouldn't want to keep you from your bed". Shawn smiled. "I know I said this earlier but it was really nice to talk to talk to you. I missed this. I'm glad we can still be friends."
He touched your arm again and you got slight shivers.
"I missed this too" you blushed.
"Goodnight y/n" Shawn said as he got in the elevator.
"Goodnight Shawn" you said.
The elevator doors closed and you headed to your room. "Friends" you kept thinking to yourself. Were you just friends or could you be something more?
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A/n: ok I liked this one. I was inspired when I was watching an episode of Jane the virgin lol. But anyways I know I said earlier I would post a bunch and then I didn't but I kinda just stopped going on this app but not I'm back and I plan on posting. Anyways enjoy.
Also if you have any reading recs pls send some to me. I'm always looking for recs :)
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