Thought this would be a nice chapter to write about :)
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(Y/ns pov)
It was one of those days for me were I just felt..off. Really insecure I guess? I mean, I always feel like that but sometimes there's days for me we're it gets worse. What causes me feeling like that is comments about how feminine I look, or Counstently being called a girl/lady/woman, whatever you wanna call it.
I didn't shower for a few days? Maybe a week?I felt grossed out by my body. I simply couldn't even look at myself in the mirror without crying. Emotional much?
So I was just laying in my bed filled with stuffed animals (I have a bed full of stuffed animals, it feels like ur in a cloud, or in heaven 🥰) watching the new episode that came out in euphoria (HAD ME IN TEARS 😭 POOR FEZ AND ASHTRAY) eating random snacks I brought up, or kept in my room.
I heard knocking on my door.
Y/n: come in.
I say, vi opens the door.
Vi: you've been In your room all week, you okay?..
I look away from my computer and look up at vi and then back to my computer.
I slightly fiddle with the rings on my fingers.
Y/n: yep, I'm doing amaaaaazing.
I say dragging out the a and saying the last few words more sarcastically then wanted to.
Vi: are you okay?..
Y/n: lolz I was joking! Don't worry, now shoo! Let me watch!
I say pouting. Vi slightly chuckles and nods leaving the room.
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Caitlyn a few minutes after comes in.
Caitlyn: heyyyy! How's my sister doing??
'Sister'
I get caught off by my thoughts when Caitlyn says
Caitlyn: shoot! Sorry I ment brother, I'm soooo sorry!
I weakly smile at her and nod as a sign saying 'it's fine. '
Y/n: can you just.. Leave?
Caitlyn was slightly shocked. Did I sound rude? I don't think I did.. I hope not..
Caitlyn: sure, ofc sorry.
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Vi came in not that long ago to cuddle with me.
Vi: wanna tell me what's wrong?
She says our of nowhere.
Y/n: no.. Maybe... Kinda.. Yeah.
I mumbled the last part, loud enough for vi to hear.
Vi: go on, I'm listening.
She says giving me a soft comforting smile while playing with my hair calming me down a bit.
Y/n: it's just... I feel like a girl.. Always looked at feminine. But I can't even cut my hair nor get surgery or anything! If so my parents would KILL me, they always want me to be a.. Lady.
I tear up slightly at the end.
Y/n: but I don't want to be one, I wanna be a boy! They always forget to call me he or him or boy ,brother whatever . They don't even care when they call my by my dead name or miss gender me. It hurts me so badly... I haven't been able to do anything for the past week cuz of how insecure I've gotten from all of this..... God , forget I said all of that...
I cover my face in vi's chest regretting saying it all, feeling like an attention seeker. It's just whenever she around I feel so safe to the point I feel like I can blurt out all of my problems. Just like I did now...
Vi:number 1. You're always gonna be a boy to me. My dearest boy. And 2. Fuck them all. Don't listen to them, you ARE a boy, NOT a girl.
A tear slightly rolled down my cheek as I slightly sobbed into vi's chest.
'Thanks. ' I manage to mumble as vi softly smiles, hugging me tighter.
Vi: no problem.
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I feel like y'all are bored of this story- so like.. Do y'all want another one? Like idk any character x reader, I'll do the ones I know, by that I mean ill pick one.
