she's my anchor || Malia Tate

chapter one

Olivia's P.O.V

*flash back*
"Come on alli! What's the worst that could happen" I chuckled lightly
She looked at me with a stern look and then rolled her eyes laughing slightly "the worst? Oh I don't know your brother kills me" she pushes me slightly her laughing getting louder. I love her laugh, I love her smile, actually I just love everything about her. "It's just a small tattoo he won't even notice! Come on alli please" I say giving her my best puppy eyes, she sighs shaking her head slightly "we'll come back once you're older and get anything you want I promise" alli always keeps her promises to me. "Fine! but now you have to buy me food" I tell her smiling all she does is laugh and pull me into her side as we walk to her car.

*present day*

she didn't keep her promise.
after that day I never saw her again.
a mugging gone wrong is what I was told, her whole life taken away all because of some random person who they never caught.

I've been held up in my room for about a month and all I can think about is how it would be different if I was with her that day, I would have helped her, called for someone. I would have chose my life over hers.

I'm starting to realize that I'm not the only one who lost her, for the first couple days I was only thinking about myself, not how Scott, lydia, stiles or mr argent felt. I've been so rude to all of them, oh god Isaac too, I should call him and see how he is.

Tomorrow is my very first day back at beacon hills high and I'm terrified, every inch of that school is covered with memories of alli and i.

"liv.. mom made your favourite" i hear scott say outside my door, i sigh quietly. i know i can't stay in here forever

"i'll be down in a bit scott" i say quietly, i hear a tiny sigh escape his mouth. i know scott is trying to put on a brave face for me, everyone is really. i know they mean well but it still hurts.

i open my door quietly looking around to see if scott is up here, as i'm looking around i notice a few things that are in different places.
i can hear mom and scott making small talk in the kitchen and i start feeling my anxiety grow, maybe this was a bad idea. maybe i should go back upstairs mayb-

"liv! come on honey foods almost done" mom says breaking me out of my thoughts, i give her a small smile following her quickly.

"sit down and i'll dish you up a plate" she says smiling at me

i sit in my regular seat and glance at the chair beside me, alli used to sit here whenever she had dinner with us. i feel a wave of emotions fly through me and as soon as i think about leaving mom sets down a plate in front of me.

i look at her and all she does is smile at me, i know she's trying to make this as normal as possible but it just feels weird. i pick up my fork and start pushing around the noodles, alli loved my pasta.

"so liv, school is tomorrow.. if you aren't ready you don't have to go back" she tells me giving me a reassuring smile

"mom, i'm fine. trust me i'll be okay" i tell her giving her my best smile, i know she can tell it's fake but she never forces me to talk about it.

~time skip~

beep beep beep bee-

i hate alarms.