Out Of LOVE(On Hold)

2.Darwin's Law

I am silver and exact. I have no preconceptions.

Whatever I see I swallow immediately
Just as it is, unmisted by love or dislike.
I am not cruel, only truthful‚
The eye of a little god, four-cornered.
Most of the time I meditate on the opposite wall.
It is pink, with speckles. I have looked at it so long
I think it is part of my heart. But it flickers.
Faces and darkness separate us over and over.

Now I am a lake. A woman bends over me,
Searching my reaches for what she really is.
Then she turns to those liars, the candles or the moon.
I see her back, and reflect it faithfully.
She rewards me with tears and an agitation of hands.
I am important to her. She comes and goes.
Each morning it is her face that replaces the darkness.
In me she has drowned a young girl, and in me an old woman
Rises toward her day after day, like a terrible fish.

-From Mirror By Sylvia Plath

Shehnaaz was lost remembering over the lines of her all time favourite poem of Sylvia Plath from School times and was observing herself very sharply in the mirror and was wondering is she too aging just like Sylvia mentioned in this poem in last too lines?!!

Was she too have grown over years from a naive adolescent to a carefree teenager to a young energetic women and now entering into her early 30's as an adult..she was way too matured and that too very fast unknowingly...but she has never wanted this from life!!...But then her life made her like this over the years...she will be 29 years in few days ..29 years were not that too old or was it ??....to experience so much in life...will she too be lost someday in the deep oblivion and darkness just Sylvia mentioned and will be looking towards and waiting for her terrible end to look for the peace she was seeking for over the last few years??....but then finding Peace !!....is it so easy to get peace in this homosapien life!!??? If it have been so easy then why we always say...REST IN PEACE after death mostly and why not one focuses on the peace when we are alive? Why no one seeks and talk about living a peaceful life.making peace the top most priority of life rather than just running over miniscule wealth,status,name,fame,ardour,
fayde ,delusive contentment and every other wrong means which can lead to an actual happiness and a satisfied content life finally providing the peace!!!....Thus we human have become so hollow.low and shallow!!!!!

She just huffed and sighed and shrugged her overthinking mind and cursed her cerebrum for wasting and occupying her busy schedule of early morning and started combing her long thick mane in front of the Mirror...she checked did she had any grey hair as off now...there were none...she breathe in relaxation...she touched her face and area below her eyes to check any dark heads,wrinkles or any wart!?...there was not a single trace of them...she got relieved again!...Human mind and its insecurities are best friends forever!!!

Shenaaz!!

"Baby ! kya kar rahi hai baby ?Haan Baby!!".Sidharth came near her wife and held her waist under her deep but not that deep blouse and just above her navel.She was wearing a black and golden border cotton silk saree gifted by him on her last birthday...Sidharth loved Her in Saree..and suits and..shorts ,western wear.... ..and everything she wear and everything she doesn't!! He just loved her with and without too.

"You look so so so beautiful meri jaan....abhi 15 minutes hai to leave for office...what's say biwi!!".He spoke biting her earlobe for a longer period and husking around it..Sidharth has some weird kind of obsession with her wife's earlobes.

Shehnaaz smiled thoroughly.The peace she was looking for , Sidharth was every fragment of that peace in her life ever since they met amidst of all that chaos they had in their life all these years.....but that chaos always had some strength ,beauty and longing for life.She closed her eyes and give a soft short kiss to his adam's apple turning on his side.