I was just 15
She gave me up just like that
I stared into her eyes
As the tears roll down my face
He takes me away,
I look back and mother isn't there anymore
He brings me to the cruiser.
2 hours later I'm at my new home.
Everyone seems nice,
At first.
5 months later I'm with a real family
It started off "normal".
And then they started to show
Who they really were.
The blades became my new friends
And then I'm in the hospital
It's all happening to fast
A month later im in another placement
Is it ever gonna end?
5 months there and off I go
I'm going on 6 months here
I never know what tomorrow will hold for me
It might be good or it might be bad
There's 12 of us and more to come
We all live day to day
Some happy and some not
Everyday I think about it,
Think about what it would be like to die.
Would anyone even miss me?
When will my next attempt be?
Today?
Tomorrow?
In a week?
Who knows.
If He cant help me,
Then nobody can, right?
You got no blades,
So glass is your next best friend.
You cut and cut
Until one arm is covered in cuts
And blood,
That you cant even see your arm anymore,
But your not even close to being done,
So onto the next arm you go.
Blood is dripping onto the floor,
Your scared,
You don't know how to stop.
This goes on and on...
Your 17 now
And still away
When does it end?
I'm scared mommy,
Where are you?
It's dark in here,
I'm so cold,
Im so lonely,
Where are you?
She's gone
and she's never coming back
