I'm so mad and traumatized

One Room Sugar Life

Here comes the angst

This sweet world we are inside.

Oh, Boyfriend, since I meet you I feel like my emotions are finally brilliant, as brilliant as you are, I never felt alive before, since that accident in my school everything became so hopeless, but you, you bring a little sparkle of joy to my misery, every time I see you my gray world recovers its color, only for you.

I will make everything disappear.

You are the only one I admire, I want to run away with you at my side, let's leave this world together, everything inside this world is just bitter, horrible people making selfish decisions, we can't control ourselves after all, don't you think we should leave everything falling apart? don't you think we should destroy all these bitter things and be together in a sweet paradise?

I cannot let any person see what I am hiding inside of my heart.

I love you so much, I love you more than anything in this world, more than I love myself, but why, why do I feel like this? can you tell me? can you tell me the meaning of these impure thoughts I'm having? I love you, isn't love supposed to be pure? then why... Why do I feel like this? Angels and demons are the same things, am I a demon? I want to gently whisper into your ear and confess my feelings but my heart is laying inside my pocket, in my sleeve, I don't want to taste defeat so I'm leaving this world with you.

"Stay here, and never go away."

I said when my face was covered in tears, you took all my tears away, with that beautiful smile on your face, you are amazing, you are all I need, you know that I have said it too many times, you probably know it. My life, is just eternal pain but you make everything okay, always, no matter what, can we be like this forever?

Because now it's only you and I.

We ran away, we left this bitter and dirty world, you were laying at my side, I'm so happy, we are finally together, we will be like this for the rest of our lives, right? you are happy too, you told me that you love me, I can't help it, my heart is rushing, all my gray emotions are now useless, my world is now covered with wonderful colors.

Let's sing a song about our love.

This room, you filled it with lovely colors, it's so bright and warm inside, don't you think? I adore spending time with you, from the bottom of my heart, you like to sing a lot, I sing along, you told me you like my voice, I'm so nervous, I know my voice isn't as good as yours, I need to keep trying, harder and harder, I can't lose you, never.

Another girl, another girl, myself, and also himself.

I told you about my sins, the horrible things I did and what I still do, the people I couldn't save and the ones I murdered for my own sake, and for the sake of our love, you didn't say a thing, I thought you will run away, that you would leave me all alone, but you hugged me, you told me that you don't care, that you love me anyway, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you so much.

An angel who acts just like a dummy.

You make me feel alive, happy, amazed, is there something you can't do? you always help me, you always make me feel better, these emotions are making me feel drunk, everything about you is what I love the most, just keep your stunning smile, that's all I need to keep it going, to keep fighting for my life, and for you, for us. If there is a perfect person, it is you, you are my angel, my saint, I would die for you.

I had been living inside a bland and tasteless life.

And then I met you, I never thought life would be important, not after seeing how easy is to break and destroy one, but you are a life I can't take away, I'll never let anyone take your soul away, everything is so sweet now, so perfect, I won't let any impolite person ruin everything I have been working on, no one is ever going to hurt you, I promise.

Only now have I become an entire person!

You are everything I need, I wasn't able to love before, I felt like boring and useless furniture, without a full soul, being unable to feel and perceive the wonderful thing that life offers.

Thank you, Boyfriend.

Even after all.

In the end, it's all a lie.

Because you are with someone else, someone else is getting those colors, I thought your happiness would be my happiness, then would you like to explain...

Why am I not happy?

[Is this a bad time to say the one-shots are not related?]