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Chapter 5

*Cierra's POV*

It's Tuesday. Ew.

I slowly get up out of bed and dress in sweats and a t-shirt. I tie my hair up in a messy bun. After I brush my teeth and wash my face, I go downstairs to eat. But I soon realize that I'm not hungry. There's a pit in my stomach. Something missing.

I already know what it is of course, it's Nash. I refuse to let my self think about it, but I always fail. He's gone, he doesn't want to be my friend anymore. I convinced myself that he only called me a bunch yesterday to tell me off some more.

I had to see him at school today. Yuck.

*Nash's POV*

I woke up and got dressed in my usual attire. I couldn't stop thinking about Cierra. What if she had an anxiety attack? What if she needed help and I wasn't there to help her? The thought of it made me sick.

I headed over to Cameron's house. He offered to let me ride to school with him from now on. I don't even know why. All I know is I like being popular, a lot.

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We got to school and walked over to where Matt was standing waiting for us. We did the bro handshake and started talking.

"Yo guys how should we humiliate that rat today?" Matt smirked

"Rat?" I asked

"Yeah bro the one that used to be your best friend." He replied

"Oh," I replied simply. Well my plan wasn't working. How am I not supposed to talk about Cierra around them when that's all they want to talk about?

They began thinking of multiple ways to humiliate her in front of the whole school, and I just agreed with everything. What the hell is wrong with me. I should be sticking up for Cierra, she's my best friend and I have a giant crush on her. What the hell am I doing?

|~lunch~|

I walked out with Cam and Matt to 'the table,' or the cool kids table. I glanced over to where Cierra sat, and I saw her looking right back at me. We locked eyes, and she looked away in pain. Pain. I caused my best friend pain.

Then something happened. Something in my chest tightened. The thought of causing Cierra pain hurt me. Physically.

Cam and Matt got up and nudged me to get up too. They told me to follow their lead, so I did. We all walked over to Cierra's table, awh jeez this isn't going to end well. Cam took out a two bottles of paint and handed one to me. I gave it to Matt, I was honestly scared. Cam and Matt made eye contact, then Cam shouted "Go!" and Mayah and Anna popped out with paint bottles too. They all poured it on Cierra. Layla and Ashley tried to stop them, but earned a face full of paint.

Cierra looked at me, pleading. I just stood there and looked away. That pain in my chest came back, but 10x harder. I didn't know what to do. I grabbed my chest and ran. I ran for my life. I looked back and saw Cierra crying, looking right back at me. She was crying because I didn't help her. I told her I would protect her. I promised.

The pain seared in my chest, burning me. I looked at her one last time, and this time when she looked at me, she mouthed "I hate you."

Cam, Matt, Anna, and Mayah ran out of paint, so they began to go after Layla and Ashley. They punched, kicked, and poked them. These were my friends. These were the most important people in my life, and I was selfish enough to save myself instead of them. I slid to the ground and buried my face in my hands. I'm such an idiot.

I looked one last time at Cierra, the pain in my chest exploding when I saw her face. She had a busted lip and the cut on her cheek was reopened. Cam, Matt, and their girlfriends finally backed off and began walking towards me. "What the hell man you missed all the fun." Matt said. I was gonna throw up. Hurting my best friend was fun? I couldn't deal with this anymore.

I stood up and I ran again. This time I ran home, straight into my room. I screamed into my pillow and a few tears slipped out of my eyes. My chest was burning, like it was on fire. It was unbearable. But this is what I get for watching my best friend get beat up huh. I deserve an eternity of misery. I don't deserve Cierra Smith as a friend. And I sure as hell don't deserve her as a girlfriend.

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A/N- Hey guys sorry for the short chapter I know it sucks but the next one will be better I promise!