Reminiscences || JJK

His side

Tae’s pov
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Tae: what is happening to her doctor?
Doc: her brain is recalling everything. Like not everything but the good past memories that she subconsciously wants to remember.
Tae: ah- I don’t get it.
Doc: ok…suppose you have a bad memory with someone or something, you want to forget it so your brain subconsciously acts like that never happened. And you always want to remember the good ones, so your brain subconsciously remembers it .
Tae: so y/n is gaing back her memories.
Doc: yes, but not all of them, the only ones were she is happy or having a good time. The moments were she has suffered she may not remember.
Tae: all the bad things that people did to her, she won’t remember?
Doc: maybe not.
Tae: thanks doc, is there anything else?
Doc: yeah, she came back after so long, her brain will try harder to remember things, soon she will be able to remember people that she once had forgotten.
Tae: thanks doc.

I left the chamber to go to y/n’s room, she was sleeping peacefully, I sighed and went near her and sat down.

Tae: ha- look how peacefully you sleep, I don’t think it will be peaceful for a long. If you remember things, everything will change.
Today the doctor told me that you might only remember good things from your past. What if you remember your love for jungkook? What if you don’t remember the worst behaviour that he did to you? Babe I know you love me, you truly do, but I fear that you will always love him more than me. I saw you be sad for months after you left. I saw you miss him dearly.
What should I do? I am afraid I will loose you to him.

I put my head on y/n’s lap and rested for a bit.
I went out her room after a while and patted on her head.
Got into my car and I was driving when Jimin called.

/phone/
Jimin: hey bro did you reach already?
Tae: yeah a long ago.
Jimin: what’s wrong?
Tae: y/n fainted today.
Jimin: how?
Tae: she is remembering everything.
Jimin: that’s good isn’t it?
Tae: yes but no.
Jimin: why?
Tae: the doctor said that her brain is only remembering all the good memories she had.
Jimin: so? It’s better.
Tae: no it’s not.
Jimin: why?
Tae: she will remember jungkook, her love for him, her happiness, she won’t remember the bad behaviour he did with her.
Jimin: they will be friends again. What’s wrong with that?
Tae: you are stupid bro, she can leave me for him, I know she loves him more.
Jimin : no- you are stupid, she is with you for 6 years, I think she loves you genuinely, she won’t leave you.
Tae: I know she loves me but-
Jimin: but you can’t help but feel insecure?
Tae: yes. I know what I should do.
Jimin: what?
Tae: I won’t let them meet, if they don’t meet she won’t remember anything.
Jimin: but tae that’s-

Tae: shit my battery.

My battery was dead. I couldn’t here what he was going to say, but I guess he agrees.

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8 years ago ~

I was running behind her, no I wasn’t late, I wanted to be with her.
Tae: y/n wait.
Y/n: oh hey, good morning.
Tae: you look dull, what didn’t got any sleep?
Y/n: no I didn’t, it’s a new place I have to adjust.
Tae: ok, ya-Matilda is throwing a party Friday evening, wanna come?
Y/n: I don’t even know her.
Tae: I can vouch for you.
Y/n: I don’t think so-

I pulled her inside the school, I saw Matilda standing with her friends.

Tae: hey Mat.
Matilda: hi tae, so long. Did you enjoy your vaca?
Tae: yeah I did.
Matilda: and did you get my invitation?
Tae: Yeah i did, can I bring someone else too?
Matilda: Yeah why not, bring anybody you want.
Tae: ok then y/n you are coming.
Y/n: ah-ah hi.
Matilda: hi, who is this tae?
Tae: she is my friend, she just moved in, is it ok to bring her??
Matilda: of course, your friend is my friend.

We left the corridor and went towards the class.

Tae: see everything is fine.
Y/n:yeah, bye I have to go now.
Tae: there’s still time, let’s go to the café.
Y/n: no I am not hungry you can go.

She quickly entered the café and I was left to go alone.

I couldn’t find her during break, so when the school was over I quickly rushed to her class to see her.
She wasn’t there. I asked her classmates where she went. They told she left already.
I ran outside the the school but she left already. My friends dragged me to play.

This happened for the whole week, I couldn’t talk to even once. On Friday luckily we had a combine class for photography.

I saw her sitting alone.
I ran to her.

Tae: y/n I didn’t see you for the week, where were you?
Y/n: oh- tae… I came late these days so maybe you didn’t see me.
Tae: but I felt bad that you were ignoring me.
Y/n: no no I wasn’t, we just didn’t run into each other. That’s it.
Tae: did you get you phone fixed?
Y/n: yeah.
Tae: ok give me your number.
Y/n: ok.

She quietly typed her number.
The teacher called us.

Teacher: today everybody is on there own, click the picture alone and make a ppt for your assignment. And Jimin do it without taehyung.

The whole class stated laughing at Jimin.

Student: I don’t think they will Mam.
Teacher: I don’t wanna see you 2 together until you give in the assignments.
Jimin: Mam that’s to harsh. Common.
Teacher: nope.

After all the melodrama everybody left to take pictures.
I looked around to see y/n but she vanish again. Does she have teleporting powers or what?

In the evening I went to pick up y/n.. she came out wearing the most beautiful dress ever, she looked stunning.

Tae: somebody looks stunning.
Y/n: really?
Tae: yeah now let’s go.

Me and Y/n hopped onto to our car and drove to the party.
I have seen her getting excited for parties but today she wasn’t.

I noticed her mood for the past 4 months , it’s like someone took her happiness away from her. Maybe I understood everything.

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I went and confronted her.

She was standing on the school terrace alone.

Tae: missing him?
Y/n: yeah- ah- I mean wha- what are you talking about?
Tae: relax you can talk to me.
Y/n: no tae it’s okay.
Tae: common I am friend aren’t I?
Y/n: I know I said that I will move on and give you a chance but I just can’t. I am sorry.

She started crying

Tae: Ya ya- don’t cry, and don’t tell me sorry, I would never force you to do anything.

I went forward to hug her but she rejected it. To be honest that did hurt

Y/n: I am sorry tae, I am going now I have class.

With that she left.

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/now/

No no I can’t let that happen again. I have spent the most beautiful moments of my life with her. I can’t loose her now, she is mine.
I will do everything possible to save her from that devil.
You are mine y/n and no one will take you away from me. I promise.