My Second Life

Part 1

My name is Henry I'm 16 gonna be turning 17 in November

In the past i was a big jerk and a bully whatever u want to call it but i didn't like the part where i was a bully i have to admit it was fun but i just never want to go back to that but now i am a stoner well nah i just smoke a lot it helps me with my problems that i have now and i guess that's a good thing  / I have  2 sisters that live with me they argue a lot i have my mom and to be honest if it wasn't for her i would have died because i wanted to commit Suicide and no I'm not saying she is the only one that helped me with my Suicide there are other people that helped me like my ex that was my gf at the time and my bestfriend and I'm really glad they all helped me from doing that 

 Well to begin with my ex and me i would really have to go far back umm the way things ended for us wasn't good at all she said she didn't trust me enough to move and i do get that because every girl is gonna think their man might or may not cheat on them at least once but i could never cheat on someone because that truly hurts for someone for the rest of their life but anyway so after we broke i didn't move on i did but i didn't get in a relationship but she did and it really pissed me off its not because she was in another relationship it was because she dated my friend and they had sex and she said she was pregnant but at first i didn't believe this because she had said this before so many times but she said she had a miscarriage and to admit i wanted to feel sad for her i really did but i just couldn't and people cant really get mad at me for that yes i do get the understanding of a miscarriage but i just couldn't feel sad but i did get sad at one point for her because we said we wanted to have kids and i thought of us having a baby then it would be miscarriage so yes at one point i was sad for her but then all of sudden i just stopped feeling sad and today me [present me] i have no emotions to stuff like family deaths because i know death comes to all people so i just sit their and i accept it but tbh if i wanted to change something between us i wished that we could have ended things better because ik she hates me for that but i would never stay in a relationship that has no trust and we had a relationship for 4+ years and to be honest those was some good years and i want to thank my ex for that 

My bestfriend the first thing to say about her is that she respond hella fast /We watch coryxkenshin together a lot and its really fun to be honest but the one thing i don't like about my best friend is her mom /her mom dislikes me for many reasons she would try to put me in jail but idc if i go to jail or juive [don't know if i spelled that right]because i really truly think its fun as long u aint getting bullied up in there you good but i felt very hurt to myself because i feel like i disappointed my mom anyway i cant really remember all the things me and my bsf did all my life because i have a very bad memory but sometimes that comes in handy i remember some things just not all the things i really talk about i just remember the most important stuff to me and if ur not important to me then ur either a enemy[oop]but if you are important to me then you all good and that means we have no bee or anything anyway im gonna end this right here 

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