To Neverland

Chapter 2

Disclaimer : not perfectly edited. bound to have grammatical errors. bare with me. thank you.
- @Dawngayle_
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I went inside the coffee shop, looking around to see which table the girls took. Seeing a waving hand with a huge smile plastered on Min's face while looking at me, I couldn't help but shake my head in embarrassment. Walking fast towards their table. Min tapped the vacant chair beside her, suggesting me to sit there.

" So, What was that? with William?", I comforted myself unto the seat but then i heard one of my friends, Roxy, talked to me. Looking around seeing their anticipated faces, i couldn't help but sigh in response. I mean, i seriously told them nothing is going on between me and William.

" Girls, You do know that we are not what you think right ? we are just close friends", I shrugged at them while smiling, well my response wasn't taken seriously again like usual, " Oh come on, He seems into you ", says Rhee. I just flicked her forehead as my only response, since nothing i say will ever make them believe me.

" Ugh, come on Kierra, just admit it already ", says Roxy who is busy holding her phone while peeking a glance at me. I just shrugged again as they never try to believe me despite whatever words i say.

" So, girls, i ordered what you wanted—- oh wait Kierra! you were tad late, come on and tell me what you want and i'll order it for you ", apparently Kat went to order, no wonder i feel like we are missing one person.

" No, it's okay. I can go and order it, i mean i was the one who got late.", I don't like asking people to do things for me like this, i wouldn't mind if it was the whole group. Pouting, Kat instead offered to go with me since i wouldn't let her order for me. I stood up and went to the cashier to order my usual drink, Java chip. Kat was talking to me about what i should try since i've been drinking this every time we come in here, but of course which i politely declined. Some things aren't easy to overcome and change, just like what i always every single day.

We went back to the table, them talking about stuffs i couldn't relate to, i try to barge in and tag along the discussion but sometimes i just do it in moderation. As we talk and talk, we heard our names for our order in which i offered to get it but of course dragging Min with me. Dividing the number of cups for the both of us, we then went back and started sipping on our drinks.

After an hour, we decided to go home already since some of them have prior meetings to attend, probably a party or even a family gathering. The three girls started going out of the coffee shop, leaving me and Min behind, cleaning up the rest of the cups. But suddenly i heard Min's muttering voice which i couldn't clearly understand, " What was that Min? You saying something?", quickly looking at her, i caught her staring at me seriously. The look that clearly shows that she knows i am hiding something. But as i am used to that look, all i know is that my facade always work with her, not letting her even feel suspicious of my smiles.

Sighing, Min stood up and dragged me outside of the coffee shop to sit on a vacant two people table, " Are you okay? Is everything alright? you can tell me anything, i am your wifey best-friend right? technically your wife of a best-friend", taken aback from her question, i unknowingly looked straight at William, who is sitting comfortably while facing the coffee shop where i am at.

"Of course, Why wouldn't i be okay? and yes, you are my wifey best of a friend", I lied, i lied straight to her face. But i have to admit, i don't regret it, because even if i will tell her that i am not okay, by the end of the day, she'll ignore it and everything i say is pointless. I am in too much pain to add another one and pile it up.

" Alright, well if you say so and if you are not, just call me or text me, we can hang out and eat foods, of course your treat or i can buy any food that you want as long as you hang out with me", she laughed while hitting my arm. " Alright then, i have to go and pick up my sister, are you going home already? want me to drive you home?", actually Min sometimes drive me home. "No, it's okay. i still have something to buy, so go ahead okay? Bye", she just nodded with a smile before giving me a hug and kiss on my cheek, and then walking towards her car. I just sat there, watching her get inside her car and drive away. Dazed and lost in thoughts while losing the smile i kept plastering around them all.

" Tired pretending? Doesn't it feel nauseous when you do that? Some willpower huh ", hearing that melancholic manly voice, i knew it's William, he got here fast.

" Sometimes i need to do this to avoid attention, to avoid unwanted sympathy or even a little bit of their pity.", Seeing William grabbed my half empty drink, " Min asked me if i'm okay, I just laughed it off with a lie, i am unfair to them but i know some things aren't meant to be told to anyone, just couldn't tell her that 'hey, i want to die so bad so i am not okay', i mean i don't even know what's going on with her life, why bother telling her mine", as i said that, my eyes are glued at the highway wherein i can see lots of cars and people passing by.

William sat there in silent, sipping my drink nonchalantly, " They may react differently, they might change how they see you. That's what you're afraid of. Since not everyone can understand how it feels to want death so badly like the two of us. "

I looked at William, letting out a small smile, a smile he knew very well.

" Shall we go grab some books at the mall? I need vitamin book "