Aishiteru

Chapter-37

T/w: not for weak hearted

"we would had if you didn't interfere" Kazutora mumbled in pure disappointment and annoyed tone.

"Y/N BAJI-" My brother said in a warning angry tone.

'Oh god I am fucked' I gulped

Now

"WHAT DID YOU SAY?!"My brother yelled and turned towards Kazutora.

"Nii chan! Calm down! We won't and didn't fuck" I said, standing inbetween them.

"Atleast not now" I mumbled.

"So you do want to fuck me" Kazutora whispered in my year, making me turn red.

"What are you two whispering about?" My brother sternly asked.

"Nothing" I replied.

Baji eyed me and Kazutora suspiciously.

"Why he look smug?" My brother asked.

"Well, that's because, Y/N here, want to -" Kazutora said as I covered his mouth.

"NOT ANOTHER WORD FROM YOU TWO OKAY?" I said, red.

"No. Let him finish. He wants to what?" My brother asked.

"I WANT FLAVOURED ICE CREAM. MINT FLAVOURED!" I yelled.

"N/n. I am not as stupid as you think you kno-WAIT! YOU GUYS ARE TEAMING UP TO MAKE ME FORGET ABOUT THIS! YOU SHITS!" My brother yelled at us as he lectured us, I retracted my hand that was on Kazutora's face.
(A/n: cuz if I write mouth or lips, it gon cause misunderstandings for ya'll. Ya'll are horny af. Touch some grass loves<33)

"ALSO" baji said to Kazutora.

"Don't.even.think.about.it-WAIT-WHATS THAT ON YOUR NECK N/N?" my brother  said, now examining my neck.

"Is that a fucking hickey?" He asked.

"I AM GOING TO KILL YOU KAZUTORA! STOP TAINTING MY SISTER!" My brother yelled out in anger.

'crap. He looks scary'

Kazutora jumped out of the window as Baji followed.

"WAIT THERE YOU FUCKER! OW-WAIT!" The voice of my brother yelled.

I walked towards the window to my brother running after Kazutora.

'I guess I'll wash up in the mean time' I thought as I walked towards the washroom, taking clothes and towel with me.

I stripped myself,wore the shower cap and turned on the shower head. The hot water hitting my body relaxed my muscles, I rubbed my face and noticed something on my forearm

'what the fuck?'

I turned my arm to see the top of my forearm arm.

'when did I get this scar? I never got hurt here' I thought as I touched it, and that's when it hit me.

A brief flashback of me hurting myself since my brother died and I thought that Kazutora killed my brother, so everything was so painful that I couldn't take it and harmed myself flashed in my mind. I unconsciously gripped my forearm.

'huh...?'

'that-wasn't a nightmare...?'

'it has to a be nightmare.....right?'

'IT HAS TO BE A NIGHTMARE' I thought as the feeling of nausea hit me

I vomitted in the toilet as the vivid flashbacks of people's dead body come to my mind. The memory of killing some of them. The memory of  losing people close to me. Everything hit me at once.

'What the fuck'

I thought as my body shaked, not due to the cold air, but due to those flashbacks.

'This can't be real' I thought as I somehow stood up.

'this has to be a nightmare'

'It will be okay'

'I am in a nightmare. I am dreaming'

'When I open my eyes everthing will revert back to normal' I thought as I walked towards the sink and splashed cold water on my eyes, hoping it will wake me up from this dream.

'huh..?'

'wake up'

'Wake Up'

'WAKE UP'

'WAKE UP YOU FUCKING SHIT' I thought as I continuously splashed cold water on my face.

'This can't be real-It's gotta be a joke right?' I thought as I looked at my reflection on the mirror.

'I didn't die. My brother didn't die. Kazutora didn't die. Chifuyu nii didn't die. Those people didn't die' I talked to my reflection as I clenched my jaw and tightened the grip on the sink.

'calm down y/n'

'let's think this properly'

'Fuck' I thought as I covered my face with my hands, crying.

'Calm down'

'Calm down'

'Calm down'

'Calm down' I thought as I retracted my hand and started taking in and exhaling deep breaths to calm myself down.

'I can go through this calmly'

'I can go through this calmly'

'I won't go crazy'

'I can think this through' I repeated these lines as my heart pained.

'It hurts so much'

Tears flowed uncontrollably out of my eyes as I sat down against the wall, covering my face with my hands, sobbing.

A/n

Heyyyy sugarbabiesss

I thought it would be a idea good to  this chapter here.
I'll make the next chapter 300 words longer since this is like 780 words.
(Normal chapters here are around 1k something)

What did you think about this chapter?

Do you think Y/n's going to sink down deep in the despair, or is she going to fight against it?

Also, don't worry, fluffs and spices are on their wayyy<333

I update the mikey one twommorw, so the update schedule for this book is
being updated every three days, and so, the mikey one will be every four days<333

Alsooo

Dazaiscrustybandges  guessed the  question in the prior chapter's answer correctlyyyyy. You can request a scenario if you wanttt<3333