All Because Of A Raid(Ranboo x ftm reader)

~18~

⚠️T.W. DYSPHORIA⚠️

Y/n POV

I woke up wrapped in someone's arms, but to no ones surprise it was Mark's arms. Also remembering what happened last night trying my best to not think of it. I feel the arms moving around a bit assuming that Mark is waking up, I pretend to be asleep so I can be in his arms a little longer, because his touch is nice, it's comforting even. Other then Jasper I never really had anyone who actually cared for me. Since my "dad" was an asshole, my mom got taken from me when I was 7 so I don't remember much of her, and I didn't make many friends either.
I feel Marks breathing become slightly faster, assuming that he woke up. I rolled over still pretending to be asleep, and I pulled him closer to me. Then I heard something he whispered that made me very red "Why the hell do you have to be so god damn breath taking, I've fallen and can't even tell you when you're awake." I was bright red, he noticed this and quietly asked, "Y/n, are you awake?" "Maybe" I said it slightly mumbled still trying play it off as I was just waking up. "How much of that did you hear?" "All of it" "oh god, um I'm sorry, if that makes-" "shhh, the feelings are the same you dum dum, now be quiet I want cuddles" I said yawning, pulling him closer. Now being this close to him, after finding out that there's a 98% of him also liking me, it felt like home completely. Feeling the heat coming off of his body, his slow breathes, everything about him, it felt like home.

Mark POV

I was just laying there, still slightly in shock, that the boy that I've liked for who knows how long, (saying that because I only realized it like 2 weeks ago, and came to terms with it a few days ago), has mutual feelings for me. I'm not gonna ask them about it right now because he's trying to sleep. Soon I heard his breathing slow and I just assumed he was asleep. Pulling him closer and holding them tight, I fell asleep next to the boy that has helped me for the better.

~~~time skip of 3 hours~~~

Y/n POV

After 15 minutes of procrastinating I decided to get up and take a shower, not wanting to leave the comfort of bed, and the comfort of the maybe more then best friend boy, I got up. I was feeling like shit, dysphoria was being more of a bitch than usual, but I hadn't taken a shower in over 5 days so it was very much needed.

I walked into the bathroom and set my phone and my clean clothes on the counter, I turned the shower on, moving it to the perfect temperature, not to cold, more on the hot side. Then came the part I was dreading, taking my clothes off to actually shower. I slowly started to pull up my shirt, trying my best to get it off, but I couldn't get it past my chest. I soon started to feel sick to my stomach even thinking about taking off my shirt. Not to long after tears started to fall down my cheeks. I grabbed my phone and opened up Marks contact.

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Tall pretty man <3

Bathroom, please
Read at 10:28 a.m.
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I soon heard a knock at the door, I told them to come in through my tears. Mark came into the bathroom closing the door behind him, quickly coming over to me. "Hey, hey, N/n what's wrong?" "I can't, I can't take off my shirt, I'll see myself, I'll see a girl, I can't look at it." Sniffling through tears I felt one of Mark's hands rub my back while the other turned off the shower. He held me for a good 2 minutes before looking at me and saying, "what if I make you a really bubbly bath so if you accidentally look down you just see bubbles?" "I guess that might work, but what about when I have to get in and out?" "Who said you have take you clothes off before you get in, you could just take them off when you in the bath, and with getting out, just close your eyes and grab the towel then wrap up I said towel" "but what about when I have to put my clean clothes on?" "If you're ok with it, you could just close your eyes and I could help you" "Umm, I'm not to comfortable with that" "Thats ok, if you want I can get you one of my big hoodies that you like so you can just slip it on over your shorts and shirt, I know you'll have to look at your body for a few seconds, but after we can do things to take you mind off of it" "I guess we can do that" "Ok, I'll start the bath" giving me one last big hug he got up and started the bath, grabbing the bubbles and pouring a bunch in. He turned the water off and put the bubbles away, he moved his hand around in the water a little bit making sure the temperature was ok for me. He dried his hand and went to grab one of his hoodies and put it on the counter, giving me one more hug also sneaking a small kiss on the top of my head. Once he left the bathroom I turned on my music, and slowly getting into the tub. Once my chest was completely under the warm water I removed my wet clothes and sunk down into the bubble realm just letting my mind be surrounded by the music playing from phone's speaker.

About 20-ish minutes later I was finally able to get out, I was mentally preparing myself for the last five minutes to get out and dealing with the small amount of time that I'd have to look at my body. I finally pulled the plug on the tub and got out doing my best to look up so I didn't have to see my body, I grabbed the towel and wrapped it around me, getting all the rest of the bubbles off of me. I sit there drying off my body the best I can, then comes the part I'm dreading the the most, changing into my clean clothes. I grab my boxers and slip them up under the towel along with my shorts, then the worst part, I grab my bra get it facing the right way, dropping the towel, looking up and sliding it over my head as fast as I can, I grab my shirt and put it on as well. Now my favorite thing out of all was Marks hoodie, I slid it on engulfing my body. I use my towel and wrap up my wet, dirty clothes, throwing them into the hamper for me to clean later. I grab my phone turning off my music and heading straight to Marks room. Once I'm in front of his door I knock and hear a come in, once I entered the room I closed the door and pretty much ran into mark and pulled him into cuddles. "Hey N/n, do you want to order a binder?" I look up in excitement, "Really!" "I mean duh, I know that you get dysphoric around your chest a lot, so figured that it might help you" "It would help me a lot, but I want to pay for it, I know you don't like me paying for a lot of stuff, but this is one of the things that I need to buy myself" "Ok, I'll respect that, because I can see why you need to buy that yourself." "Thank you, I'll order it later. Right now I'm just gonna lay here, it's nice" I adjust myself so our stomachs are touching, while burying my head into his neck. One of his hand's laying on my back, his other hand scrolling through tik tok, occasionally showing me some funny videos.

Not to long after my stomach was yelling at me to get some food, considering I hadn't ate in over 29 hours. "Hey Mark?" "Yes pretty boy"
"I uh- I'm hungry, can we go get food?" "Sure, do you know what you want to eat or do you just want to drive around and look at the restaurants and fast food places?" "Can we just drive around and see what they all have?" "Sure, I do need to change clothes tho, I can't go out in public in pajamas" "Ok, I'm probably gonna put some jeans on." I hesitantly get up, but before I do I give Mark a small kiss on his forehead. I walk out of his room over to mine to change into some jeans, and head into the kitchen. "Oh hey Y/n!" "Hey Bianca, how are you?" "I'm doing good, how are you?" "I'm doing pretty good to." I know that's a lie, I just don't want to tell here that I feel like shit.
"We should hang out again sometime soon again, right now I can tell that you and my brother are gonna go do something now tho." "We should, maybe we can convince Mark to let us do his make up again." "Ooo maybe, that was fun, well I've got to go finish cleaning up my room, but I'll talk to you later, bye Y/n!" "Bye"

A few minutes later Mark comes into the kitchen "Ready to go?" "Yup" He tells his parents that we're leaving as we walk out of the house.
As we were driving Mark asks, "Hey N/n, what are we?" "I honestly don't know, like it's obvious that we have feelings for each other, but do you want to be something?" "I have no clue, I'm still trying to process that you like me like that." "Same here" "What if we go on like a date or two and just see how it goes? If you're ok with that." "I'd like that. Oh look there's a Pizza Hut, wanna go there?" "Sure"

The parking lot wasn't to crowded, so it would be easy to find a good table inside. We walked into the building scanning where we wanted to sit. We picked a table close to the back and in the perfect view of the T.V with cartoons on it. The waitress came by to take our drink orders and to give us the menu. To drink Mark got a Dr. Pepper and I got a Coke. They went to get us our drinks and we looked through the menu and both decided to get a large stuffed crust pepperoni pizza with garlic knots. (A/n if a Pizza Hut by you has garlic knots I recommend them I think their good :] ) They came back with our drinks and we ordered our food. As I was unwrapping my straw, I made it so only a little bit of the straw was show, I blew on the straw watching the wrapper fly into Marks nose. "Eyy what was that for" "For fun" I smiled at him. Soon our food came out (be who you areee) and we began to eat obviously. Once we finished Mark and I argued who got to pay, but before he realized it I had handed the waitress my money, obviously Mark was a little annoyed but I let him leave the tip.

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Sorry this took so long to get out as I had a personal stuff going on but I had little sparks of motivation here and there so I was able to wright a little bit. I still don't have a set schedule so I can't tell you when I'm gonna upload again but here is this chapter. Also I don't always look at my notifications as soon as I get them but I do read your comments eventually I just might not respond to them as my brain will tell me that it's been to long, but I do read you comments! Anyways have a good day/night I love all of you and if you're in a bad place it will get better <33