This is Us - Sequel to This is Me

Chapter 11 - Numbness

"What?"

"You know what you did." Liam said.

"No, not really."

"You really hurt him."

"Niall?"

"Yes, he was hanging with her and you saw that they were holding hands and people were taking pictures and you got jealous so you pushed him to the ground and kissed her so everyone would see you guys together."

"You pushed him to the ground Harry?"

"I guess."

"You guess? I can't believe you."

"Im sorry."

"Save it Harry."

I walked into the room with all the bunks. I heard crying and I knew it was Niall. I walked up to his bunk and climbed up.

"What are you doing?"

"I am coming up."

"Why?"

"Cause you're my friend and you are upset."

I cuddled into his side and he looked at me like he was lost. HIs eyes were so blue and beautiful. I couldn't help but stare. Why did I let him go? He put his arms around me and thats when I realized I was tired and shortly fell asleep.

I woke up to an empty bunk and shouting. I got out of Niall's bunk and walked into the next room. There stood Harry, Liam and Niall. Niall and Liam were yelling at Harry and he was yelling back.

"Hey What is going on!" I yelled trying to be heard. They all turned their heads and Harry walked up to me.

"Well I looked for you when it was time to go to bed and I see you in bed sleeping with NIall!"

"I went to comfort him and fell asleep. Maybe if you weren't being a jerk to him I would have been sleeping with you!"

"You know what?"

"What?"

"You are still in love with him and you always will be and I can't be with someone that is not in love with me!"

"That is not true!"

"Its not?"

"No, I love you too!"

"No I am not gonna live like this. Either you get over him or i'm moving on!"

"I cant!"

"Then we are done!"

"Harry!"

"No I wont do it!"

"Im sorry!"

"You have problems!"

"So do you!"

"Not as bad as yours!"

"Whatever Harry you're such a jerk."

"Well don't come crying to me when he hurts you again."

"I wont!"

"Fine!"

"Fine!"

He walked out of the room and I fell to the floor. Why am I such a mess. All I do is ruin things. I began crying uncontrollably. I felt arms picking me up, but I couldn't look at who it was. I was too busy crying and hating myself. I felt myself lifted and put on one of the bunks. I just laid there crying. Will I always mess things up? I cried and cried till my eyes started to sting and I couldn't cry no more. I just layed in that bunk staring at the blank ceiling. The bus was quiet. I couldn't hear anyone. I feel so alone, but that's what I get. I feel so weak and broken. I closed my eyes and just laid there, feeling numb as hell. I broke into tears again. I cried myself to sleep that night, hoping I wouldn't wake up.